Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy New Year!

I like the new year I guess. I mean, I'm not a big fan of change so I always get nervous when the new year rolls around and for at least 3 months after it I'm still writing the previous year when I date something. It takes me a while to get used to stuff like that. But one of my biggest issues with the new year is how people make resolutions and say things like "it's a new year and a new chance!" People look at it as a way to start fresh and begin again. When really, every day in a new day. Every day is a new chance to be better than you were yesterday. Also, if you have accepted Christ as your personal Lord and Savior, you ARE NEW! 2 Corinthians 5:17 says "Therefore is anyone is in Christ he is a new creation. The old is gone, behold, the new has come." You don't need it to be a new year to be a new person. At any time you can choose to say "I need to change." That's your choice. Every day is a new chance, every moment is a new opportunity.

   Now with that being said I want to reflect on my year and all the things God has done with my life. I've had a great year though these past couple months have been the hardest in my life so far. I can still say this year was great. Because it's another year God has given me. Some people never live to be 16 so I'm grateful for every day God has blessed me with. It's so crazy to think about all that He has done. This year has been a year of change for me. But not bad change, it's good. Yes, it's scary, but it's good. At the beginning of the year I was a shy 15 year old still stuck in the past and trying to make my voice be heard while I was too afraid to speak up. But God has changed me in so many ways. I have gotten to encourage people and be audacious. I've stepped out of my comfort zone though I admit sometimes I backed down. But its a learning process. I am SO not the person I used to be. It's crazy look back at who I once was and to see who I am now. I keep a journal and my oldest entry is from 2, almost 3, years ago. I was so immature and I flipped out about every silly thing. But if you read through it you can see how (very slowly) the little things started to seem smaller and smaller until I stopped caring and left them up to God. It shows how I became closer to Him and started to rely on Him more and more. Though throughout my journal I tell of the various trials I've encountered, you can see that God was working and moving and making all things work together. It's a book of my life. My story. But it's not about me, it's about God and how great He is. Because without Him I am nothing. I wasn't this close to God at the beginning of the year as I am now. But I fall more in love with Him every day of my life. That's something I'll continue to do throughout this new year.

   I had some pretty great experiences this year. I went to Camp in the summer and that week really had an impact on me. I still think about that week often. I also had the honor of going to Tennessee on a missions trip with my youth group. I met incredible people there and the little children I worked with have changed me. I think of them daily and miss them very much. Really, I don't think missions trips are entirely about helping people. Because it seems that I get changed more than the people I have gone to help. I also did some crazy things with friends, had fun nights and youth group and grew so much stronger in my faith. Another fun highlight was Family Camp with my church. That was a fun weekend full of laughter and games and weirdness. I moved downstairs and thus got a bigger bedroom which I enjoy very much, though I didn't want to move at all at first. I also biked to church almost every day and sometimes more than once a week. (It's 6 miles to my church, so its a great workout.)

   Among less exciting things it's been a great year in the world of entertainment. I saw a lot of great movies, read some great books and listened to some great music! Movies like the Avengers, Red Lights, and Batman. I can't even count all the great books I've read. But you can check my Goodreads for that. As for music, the new Flyleaf album came out called New Horizons. Though it was their last album with Lacey Sturm, which made me cry. I got into the band Icon For Hire, which I've been listening to a lot, and I heard the song Moment Of Truth by FM Static which is so beautiful I want to cry every time I hear it.

   So this year has been amazing. Tomorrow on January 1st it'll be just like every day. A new day. A new chance. On January 2nd it will be the same. A new day and a new chance. Every day is new. Never lose sight of your goals and live for today. Life is beautiful. Embrace every moment of it.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Let's Talk About Dating

Hey everybody! Today I wanted to talk about an interesting topic: Dating. You see, people these days tend to date for all the wrong reasons and really, they start dating way too early. I know people in 6th grade with boyfriends and such. Listen up people, the point of dating is to find a husband. Yeah, it happens, but most likely you won't be dating him in grade school.

   I think a lot of girls date because they want to feel important or valued or whatever. They think that they need a boyfriend to make them feel special. But guess what? You don't! Your worth isn't found in guys or people at all. It's found in Christ. He loves you, and when He sees you, He sees His beautiful creation. You don't need a boyfriend/girlfriend to compliment you to make you feel important. Instead of seeking attention from people, look into the Word and see what God has to say about you.

   "The King will desire your beauty. Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him." (Psalm 45:11)

   "How precious are Your thoughts towards me, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand." (Psalm 139:17-18) Or just read all of Psalm 139 for that matter.

   "You are precious to me. You are honored and I love you." (Isaiah 43:46)

   Get the picture? GOD LOVES YOU! He thinks you're AMAZING! He loves you with the kind of love that no person ever could! His love is unfailing. It isn't dependent on us or what we do.

   I feel like there was more I wanted to say...I don't know. Ok, but like, people just date because they can and I don't think people care too much about finding a husband or any of that. It's messed up. I'm 16 and I've never had a boyfriend. I've never really had the desire to have a boyfriend either. Sure I've thought about what it would be like and all that, but at the end of the day, I know it's not what God wants for me. At least not yet. Because I know when the time comes, it'll happen. Eventually I'll get a boyfriend yes, but all in God's timing. People these days always rush into relationships and never give God a second thought. They never pray about what God's plan is or anything. Bro, God wants to prosper you! (Jeremiah 29:11) Look to God for counsel in everything you do. You should seek to do God's plan, not to please yourself or to give yourself momentary happiness.

   Here are just some things I think are important things to remember when you're in a relationship:

  • When your in a relationship with someone, the most important thing you should do is keep God first! Seriously! Make Him the center of everything you do! He is your King! Let Him lead every aspect of your life, including your dating life.
  • Set boundaries. Seriously people. There are certain things that are worth waiting for. You can wait until you get married. And then there are other things that some people consider appropriate when others think the complete opposite. Me and my friends have discussed this often. Like, kissing. Yes or no? Really, I can't say. That's for you to decide. But I can say that gifts are much sweeter when you wait for them.
  • If you have a problem, work it out with them. That's pretty self explanatory. Just like with friends, if your upset about something they did, work it out and talk it out.
  • Remember to learn from each other. When your dating someone, just like with friends, you guys can learn a lot from each other. Build each other up and learn from your mistakes.
  • And last but not least, FORGIVENESS!!! Both of you will mess up. But guess what? It's not the end of the world! If you mess up, admit your wrong. It'll be worth swallowing your pride for. Likewise, be forgiving of your boyfriend/girlfriend. Don't let a small mistake ruin your relationship.

   So yeah. And for you people who aren't dating, know it's all in God's timing. He knows. Just because you want a boyfriend doesn't mean you need a boyfriend. God's timing is perfect. And while your waiting, learn to look to God for fulfillment and not things of this world. Yes, a boyfriend can be a blessing from God, but just...wait for Him to give you the green flag:) But as always, pray and read your bible and listen intently for Christ while you wait on the right guy.

   Merry Christmas all!

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Rise Above It

Hello all! Early Merry Christmas! Soooooooo me and my very beautiful friend are starting something big. Yes. That's right. It's about to go down. We've been talking about this for a while and doing a lot of thinking and praying. See, we want to help people. So we've been formulating a plan on how to do so. But we finally got it.

   Our mission/organization thingy is called Rise Above It. Right now we just have our email address set up. Our goal is to help people by giving advice, sharing bible verses or just listening. Send us your story, we want to hear it! I'm hoping to get a website up and running soon where we can have a message board/forum to all share stuff on. This is something that I have been praying about and asking God about. My prayer is that God will touch lives through me and my friend.

   Me and my very beautiful friend have also been brainstorming about how to impact people in our community and such and someday (prayerfully soon.) we'll be able to start some sort of group where we can help people face to face. Helping people has always been a passion of mine and I am SUPER psyched to get to do this and be a part of something like this. I pray that God does huge things with us and this group.

   Now for you dear followers and readers, if you would keep us in prayer that would be appreciated! And also if you need prayer, help, advice, or if you just want to rant or share your story, email us! We are here to help! That's what we do! Thanks so much! Bye!

Friday, December 14, 2012

Wear Star Wars, Share Star Wars!

Well today kinda hit off to a bad start but then I remembered....


   Yes! That means all of you should be wearing something Star Wars related! This tradition started 2 years ago (I believe) when this young girl Katie's mom blogged about how her daughter was bullied at school for loving Star Wars. They said Star Wars was only for boys. So us Star Wars fans, being the awesome group that we are, took a stand. Star Wars fans all around the world were helping Katie! Then it became so much more than doing it simply for that one girl, we decided that every year on this day all the Star Wars fans will wear Star Wars attire or donate a Star Wars toy (that can go to either a boy or a girl) to a toy drive or hospital. So please! Wear some Star Wars gear today! I really hope I can see someone else wearing something SW.

   I know I'm going all out and wearing everything I can find! May the Force be with you!

   Oh, and the Hobbit is out in theaters! Who went and saw it? I have not but I really want to:)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

I Haven't Fallen Off The Earth!

Hi! I apologize for not blogging, though I seriously wonder how many of you actually noticed I was gone. I like doing updates but honestly, I don't think anyone cares enough. Nonetheless, I have not fallen of the face of the earth and (if you follow me on Twitter you would know) I have not yet left on my journey to find Narnia. (Sadly. Though I will one day...soon hopefully.) I had saved a blog in my drafts because I was trying to get my talent show video on here but it seems this website is having a hard time getting it to upload. I am so very sorry. (Well, kind of. It wasn't a very good act anyway.) Though maybe if you beg me enough I may try and get it up later.

   So today is going to be a random post. Life has been crazy hectic for me and I've been really stressed out. Prayers for me and my family would be much appreciated at this time. Thanks:) Also, The Hobbit comes out tomorrow! Who's going to see it?!?! I wish I was...we'll see. Lately I've also been on a Narnia kick so I've been watching a movie a day and I started reading the Magicians Nephew! Yay! What have you guys been up to? How is life? How may I pray for you?

   Sorry I don't update this regularly. I do more updates on my other social networks and what not. So, if you want to chat or talk or need prayer requests here on my other sites I'm on! I love talking to people! Especially to you awesome followers!

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So yes:) I would love to hear from you guys! I've also been going back and forth about getting a youtube channel. I also updated my About Me page. In case anyone reads it:P But yes. May The Force Be with you! And Merry Christmas! What are you guys doing for Christmas?

(Just a random picture I felt like sharing with you. Because I love my followers!)

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving!

Yes I know thanksgiving is tomorrow but in my house its today! My dad has to work tomorrow so we decided to celebrate a day early. So our plans for the holiday are to have a nice thanksgiving dinner as a family today and then tomorrow we're going to have another thanksgiving dinner but with some friends. So 2 thanksgivings! I'm totally ok with that:)

   I love thinking about all God has given me! Because I am SO blessed! I have a paper on my wall with big red letters that say "I'm thankful for..." and whenever I think of something I'm thankful for I write it on there. Now I need to squeeze words on there because its so full! I'll put a new one up soon. But I think we should be thankful ALL year around, not just on thanksgiving. See, I love thanking God for all the little things. You know, things that a lot of people take for granted. Like paper and notebooks, my pillow pet and my Jedi Build-A-Bear, my TV, movies, and all those ways God speaks to me.

   I hope everyone has an incredible thanksgiving! And as Christmas rolls around, don't forget that you have all you need in Christ. Be thankful! So what are you doing for thanksgiving? Comment and tell me 5 things your thankful for!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

I Want To Leave A Legacy

I want to change the world.

   I just thought I should cut to the chase. I want to save a life, to help someone who is without hope, to be Jesus for someone who never would have known Him otherwise.

   But I'm homeschooled. I don't know too many non-Christians. I try to help my Christian friends out as often as I can and I know I can make their day but...I want to help someone who without my help may not have lived to see the sunrise. God has put so much on my heart. Like, sure some people may be content where they are. But I'm not. I won't settle for where I am now. I want to be a light for Christ because that's what I was made to be. We are called to be a light to those who are in darkness! People can have HUGE effects on others! I don't think we realize the impact we can have on someone. I know because I've been affected by a small act of kindness in a hard time and I know it made all the difference.

   I work at AWANA and I strive to be the best leader I can be. I remember my leaders and how much I looked up to them and I want to be like that. I want to make my team SO on fire for God! In 4 or 5 years I want them to remember  the things I taught them or things I said. I want them to look at me and see Jesus. I want to be a reflection of Him.

   But I also want to help people my age. I want to be their friend when no one else was around, to love them unconditionally and be their light on their darkest days. My number 1 goal in life is to bring someone to Christ. I know I can't do it alone, my strength comes from the Lord. I can do nothing without Him. If you would pray for me that would be so great, pray for courage and opportunity. I want to do God's will for me, to set aside my own personal wants and do what God asks of me.

   I don't know how I can meet people but I believe that if this is what God is calling me to do then He'll provide the rest. I'm mostly worried that He'll provide and I won't have the courage to do whatever is needed.

   I always say that my theme song is Legacy by Nichole Nordeman. Because that song is like my life goal. It says "I want to leave a legacy, how will they remember me? Did I choose to love? Did I point to You enough to make a mark on things? I want to leave an offering. A child of mercy and grace who blessed Your name unapologetic ally, and leave that kind of legacy."

   So I'll be doing a lot of praying and reading my bible. (and probably a lot of letter writing too.) Hopefully God will bring an opportunity to me. So what has God been calling you to do? "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ to do good works..." (Ephesians 2:10) He has a plan for each of us. So, are you going to take that leap of faith and do what He is calling you to do?

Friday, November 9, 2012

He Will Never Let You Go

Hello all!
So the other day I had a really cool God sighting and I've been doing a lot of thinking and whatnot so I might jump around a lot. But mainly today I want to tell you my favorite love story of all time. It's great because it's mine. In a way it's very classic, but the kind of love is agape love. Unconditional love. Not on my part, but the Guy who loves me.
   Now, every girl wants a guy to pursue them. To love them and hold them and promise never to leave them. I never really thought about it before but God pursued me for 8 years! For 8 years I had been going to church pretty much every week and could give you all the answers to all the bible questions. But I never really got it. Sure I could tell you how to get into heaven. "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved." (Acts 16:31) Oftentimes when people would ask me how to get saved I would get nervous because I was afraid of giving the wrong answer. I never actually accepted it for myself. But God never gave up on me. After 8 whole years of Him trying to grab my attention, it finally clicked. I got saved.

   But I still get distracted. Very easily, in fact. But God doesn't stop waiting for me. I'll go wander off to the next thing that catches my eye and maybe sometimes even forget to Whom I belong. But He never forgets about me. He brings me back to Him. He will not alone anything to take me away from Him. "My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Fathers hand." (John 10:29)

   Every person wants to be loved. Yet why do we fail to see how much God loves us? He blesses us above and beyond what we deserve! How can I complain when I have a roof over my head, a family who loves me, friends who will always stick by me, an amazing church, and a mansion and a King waiting for me in heaven? Yeah, sorry. I'm done complaining. God loves us far more than anyone here on earth ever could. Because His love isn't dependant on us. He loves us no matter how far we stray from Him or how much we trip up.

   Psalm 139 has really been on my heart for the past few days. I've been leaving my bible open to it so whenever I see my open bible I remember that passage. It's really amazing. It says God is "intimately acquainted with all my ways." and "you laid Your hand upon me." Plus it says He thinks of us constantly. We are on the minds of the Creator of the universe. Umm, WHAT?!?! If you don't think that's cool then somethings wrong with you. Because that's crazy awesome! Not only is He thinking of us, He will always be with us. No matter where we go; heaven, Sheol, the remotest part of the sea. His hand will lead us. It also says He has a book that contains all of my days. He has a book for me....yep....God is pretty great.

   The other day God said to me "We're staying together. You're not getting away from me. Never again." (Props if you know what that's from.) Because He waited for 8 long years for me, and now that we're finally together there isn't anything that can separate us. Not death, life, angels, demons, height, depth, nothing in all of creation! (Romans 8:38) Even when I fall He holds my hand. Or as the song Crawl (Carry Me Through) by Superchick puts it. "If I have to crawl, will you crawl too?" Yes He will.

   I hope God uses this to speak to you. People have asked me before if God will give you a sign to let you know He's there; to let you feel His love. Heck yeah He will! He loves pouring His love out on you! Because you belong to Him! Hold on to that truth this weekend. You are loved!

   Oh! One more thing! I want to share with you some songs that I listen to when I'm thinking of God's love because music makes me think and see things more clearly. So here is my Unconditional Love Playlist:

Never Let You Go-Manafest
After The World-Disciple
How He Loves-David Crowder Band
All Around Me-Flyleaf
Remind Me Who I Am-Jason Grey
All Along-Remedy Drive
Atmosphere-Toby Mac
Head Over Heals (In This Life)-Switchfoot
By Your Side-Tenth Ave. North
And many more but these are just a few. I can find a song for any life situation. It's great. If you look them up and hear them for the first time, let me know what you think! Have a great day! God loves you!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

You Are Not Your GPA

This might just be a short post today because I already blogged on my other blog today (Check it out--> and I'm kinda tired. But I've been reading about the great Charles Spurgeon because I have heard so much about how amazing he was and I wanted to find out why people thought that. But they thought correctly. The dude was a boss! For real. He sought out God with all his heart and it's like, mine blowing! As a young kid he had a really deep comprehension level so he had so much understanding of God and sin.

   But one of the most amazing things I read so far about him is that he became a pastor when he was 16!!!! That's my age! He started preaching when he was a sixteen year old kid. But wait, it get's better. After a while he was thinking about going to college to study theology so he could, you know, be a "legitimate" pastor. (Which he already was. Minus the education.) His dad wanted him to do it and so did his grandfather. But one day he felt God saying to him "Seekest thou great things for thyself? Seek them not." Right then he felt like God wasn't calling him to go to college. So he didn't go. Because that's not what God wanted. Did he say "But in this economy you need a college education!" or "I can't be a good pastor without an education!" NO! God said don't do it, so he didn't do it! I wish we could all have the kind of faith that Charles Spurgeon had. He didn't worry about what might happen if he didn't go, he didn't worry about what his family might say. He simply did what God was calling him to do. No questions asked.

   I have often times said that I didn't want to go to college because I didn't think it was in God's plan for me. But people would fight me about it saying that "I couldn't survive in the economy." and blah blah blah. But think about it: If God's plan for you is to not go to college, don't you think He has a plan to provide for you?!?! You know what I say to that? I find your lack of faith disturbing. God will provide! And you know what? I used to (and sometimes still do) worry about my education and how smart I was. But not for real reasons, just because I was worried about what other people thought. Because I felt stupid when someone asked me a simple math problem and my brain goes blank because the number all swirl around in my head and make no sense. Want to know something? I love learning. I really do. I love reading classic pieces of literature like Shakespeare and the Odyssey. I LOVE history! But you take the joy out of learning when you get bombarded with homework and are under pressure to get everything right. Which is why I love being homeschooled. Because I can study what I want and I can enjoy learning!

   So to sum that all up: you are not defined by your grades and if God calls you to do something, He will provide a way to support you. But over the past year I've had a little change of heart and college may be an option for me now. But we'll see. It's all in God's hands. I hope if God calls you to do something you'll have the courage to step up and do it. No questions asked.

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Monday, October 29, 2012

Writing, Questions And Randomness.

Wow! I haven't been on here in forever!!! Sorry it's been so long.  I've had a lot of stuff on my mind but not enough to put as a whole topic for a blog so I'm probably gonna jump around a lot in this post.
   So...if you don't actually know me you might not know that I love writing and receiving letters. I mean like, I LOVE writing and receiving letters! I love it so much that I spent at least 3 hours of my day writing letters to various people! And I have this special binder I have where I keep all the letters I get from people and whenever I'm feeling sad I read it and it cheers me up! I also write down sweet text messages I get or any Facebook, Twitter, and Tumblr messages. They make my day all the time. I love encouraging people. It's my job in life. I always try to be positive and encouraging others. One thing I realized is that when I'm not helping someone...I'm not myself. When I feel sad I write nice letters to people. It helps me feel better knowing I'm might make someone's day. When people let me help them they really help me too. Because I love doing the job God has given me to do. So yeah. I love reading letters too. They make me smile...and cry. I love them.

   Now since the lovely Edessa tagged me in a post I must answer these 11 questions. Here we go:

   1. If you had the chance to live on Mars would you? Why or why not? Probably not. There's nothing on Mars. Haha. I would visit Mars, but living there would get lonely and boring.

   2. What is your favorite song? HA! Oh boy...we could be here alllllllll night. Music is my life so I could name like a million. But I really love Moment Of Truth by FM Static. (it makes me cry...)

   3. Would you rather play a video game or watch a movie, and why? Umm...depends on the movie and video game. haha. a movie....or play a video game. Man, I hate making decisions!

   4. What is your favorite film genre? I don't know really. Is awesome a genre? haha. I like a whole bunch of different movies. I like action. But they gotta have some humor in it.

   5. Marvel or DC? Psh! MARVEL!!! Though I'm starting to like Batman.

   6. What are your favorite kind of clothes to wear? Pajama pants and T-Shirt. Preferably a comfortable Star Wars T-Shirt :)

   7. Do you think society as a general rule is too wrapped up with celebrities and digging up dirt on said celebrities? Wow, good question! Yeah. Definitely. It must stink for them with their whole lives on the cover of a magazine which hundreds of thousands of people see! You don't need to know every aspect of a celebrities life! Plus who really cares what Miley Cyrus ate for breakfast?!

   8. Woodchucks or Chipmunks? Well Chipmunks can sing so...

   9. What song keeps getting stuck in your head? We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift...

   10. What is your least favorite book? I've only read one book that was so bad I couldn't finish and that was Lock And Key by Sarah Dessen.

   11. Ancient Rome or Ancient Greece? Edessa, you really do ask the right questions. haha. I'M IN LOVE WITH ANCIENT GREECE!!!!! Thank you Percy Jackson And The Olympians.

   That was a lot of fun actually. I would tag people and make my own questions but...yeah. I might do that later so....
   I hope you all enjoyed the blog! If you follow me...THANK YOU! YOU'RE THE BEST! May the Force Be With You!

Thursday, October 18, 2012


Well it's Super Hero Night at AWANA tonight and that favorite AWANA night of the year!!! Because I seriously adore dressing up. When I was little it was just called Hero Night and they've changed it now. I've struggled a little with the change in title. Because you don't need super powers to be a hero. Every time I go I'm not a typical comic book super hero and people bug me about it. But I think they're pretty super.

   So what exactly is a hero?

   Some people I've thought about being have been Lacey Mosley, (the lead singer of Flyleaf.) Thalia Grace, (along with countless others from Percy Jackson) and Tahiri Veila. (from Star Wars if course.) Now, if you know these people you may not consider them to be heroes. Lacey is the lead singer of a rock band, Thalia's a gothic and Tahiri is a former apprentice of a Sith Lord. So why do I want to be them?

   First of all, Lacey Mosley's testimony and faith in God BLOW.MY.MIND! The lady is a boss! Thalia shouldn't be judged on how she dresses. She gave her life to save her friends in the Percy Jackson books. And She is an incredible character. She had gone through SO much and yet she remained strong. She made some mistakes, sure. But so do we. She had her whole life destroyed but she kept going. She didn't let her past define her.

   All of these people (and SO many more!) really inspire me. You don't need super powers to be a hero. Like that one song by Superchick says "YOU could be a hero." You have the power to make a difference in the world. You can change someone's life. I get really inspired by people. The things that people do can make the biggest impact in my life.

   Do you know any heroes? I sure do. My parents, my older brother, my closest friends, my youth group leaders, and many many more! They might not  have super strength but they have the power to change lives. The same power you have. So use it. Go out a be a hero. Don't wait for someone to step up. Be audacious.

Monday, October 8, 2012


I love books. I love reading. I haven't really read a book I thoroughly enjoyed in a really long time. But my love for reading all came back when I re-read one of my favorite books The Lightning Theif. (From the Percy Jackson And The Olympians series.)

   Did I mention I really love books?

   I get really into them too. Like, I'll sometimes jump around and talk to the book and even yell at it. I would throw it but I don't want to ruin a good book. Books can take you away to get lost in your imagination for a while. In a book, anything can happen. Something I really love (and I mean, seriously LOVE) about books is how at some level I can relate to the characters or feel compassion for them. Books can really teach me things. (Movies too!)

   I love fictional characters. Just gonna throw that out there. I love how people can make such creative stories and though they can have superpowers or live in a magical forest, you can relate to them.

   A few things that I really love reading in a book is a redemption story. Like someone who was the bad guy goes through a dramatic change and saves the day. To see someone change their SO powerful! Another thing that I love/hate (it's complicated...) is that character in the story who is broken and hurting. Usually it's the bad guy but I have a big heart, like, I love people. It's something I do. Though it hurts me to see someone else in pain (physically or emotionally) that's a way to get me hooked on a book.

   For whatever reason...I always happen to like that bad guys. I didn't realize that until I saw the Avengers and Loki was my favorite. But I mean, I had good reason to like Loki. After all, he's amazing.

   So what are some of your favorite books? What can get you hooked on a book? Do you usually like the good guys, the bad guys, or the random guys? Happy reading!

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Just Some News

So I had mentioned in my last blog post that my life was kinda crazy. Which it is. But my attitude has changed a lot too so it's getting better. Yeah it's still kinda hectic at times but God is good! Anyhow, I do have some news I would like to share with you.


Yep. I'm going to be a big sister. Again. There are a few things I'm slightly worried about but I know God can handle it. (Also if you feel like it you can check out my Mommerz blog and she explains it in more detail--> ) Another thing parents can't decide on a name....we have this problem every time. They wouldn't take my name suggestions. Leia OR Nemo! What's wrong with them?!?!

Yeah. So if you could keep our family in your prayers it would be great. Yes life can be a little unexpected at times but it's out of our control. You just need to let God take care of it.

Thank you for everything!

Friday, September 28, 2012

When Life Gets Crazy

Wow. There are so many things I want to write about. God decided to throw me all this stuff at one time and all of these different situations and...yeah. See, my life isn't really that complicated. I don't go through drama like most teenagers and I've never really fought with a friend before either. I don't usually worry about much and I'm just generally a happy person. Well, since God has overwhelmed me with all this stuff it's really been a test of my faith. It hasn't been easy. I'm the kind of person that can stand strong through super hard situations but when my sibling gets into my stuff I have a heart attack. I'm weird like that. So along with all these interesting things going on I have trouble dealing with silly little things like when my siblings fight and stuff.

   But I have a question. It's probably something you've thought about before.
   What do you do when your life is fine and then suddenly everything changes. Where you've had your life planned and then your plans all fall apart. Ever had that happen to you? So what do you do?

   Well that's simple.

   Live with it.

   Don't freak out. Just trust God. I know all you want to do is freak out and become overwhelmed with stress but be still. In the book of Matthew God tells us the cure for anxiety. Don't have anxiety. Simply don't let fear rule your life. You are stronger then it. It's a lot easier said then done but God holds your future. It's hard to just give God all of our fears and our plans and our future. But really think about it. We mess up. We're humans. We are flawed and we can't tell what may happen tomorrow. God, the Creator of the universe who knows what each day will bring us, wants to lead us. He says to cast all your anxiety on Him. (1 Peter 5:7) I think He has better plans for us then we have for us. We think we know better but really, God does.

   I have a cool quote I found. It's one of my favorites.
"I try not to make plans. God always laughs at my plans. I'm just going to keep the door open, keep the page blank and see what gets painted upon it."
 Tom Hiddleston said that. It's very true. We make plans and then God just like "Nope." We think we know what we're doing when really, God has something better for us. It may not seem better at the time but it is. Jeremiah 29:11 says "'For I know the plans I have for you' Declares the Lord. 'Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
   So when life gets crazy and you want to panic, stay strong. The Lord is with you. He is the one who goes before you. I know you can do it. You may not feel strong enough, and maybe your not. But God is. And He is with you.

"I don't ask God for things. I ask Him to show me what I can do for Him."
   Lourdes from one of my favorite TV shows (Falling Skies) said that. I love that quote. But of course God wants us to ask Him things, that's definetly not wrong. God wants us to go to Him with prayers of petition and requests but I love the end of that quote. How about instead of freaking out and asking God to just take away all of your problems you say "God, how can I use this for Your glory?" How can you use your problem for Him?

      On a side note: My birthday was on the 26th! I'm officially 16! Maybe I'll get into that a little more in another post but as of right now I wont say much. I bought the first season of Falling Skies (which enabled me to hear that quote! Thanks God!) And as a gift from my family I got the Avengers 4 disc pack thing with the regular DVD, the blueray, the digital copy and the soundtrack. Win! Yep. I'm a happy 16 year old!

   May The Force Be With You!!!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Fellowship, Church, And My Week

Hey! Sorry I haven't been posting in a while. I usually write about things that have been weighing heavily on my heart and I kinda been at a loss for words to write in a blog. Well, last week was a crazy one for me. My family is working on moving into the apartment downstairs (we currently live on the top floor of a two flat.) and that's Also I've been worked up about a lot of things like my moms surgery and school and there's never a dull moment when you have a family of 10. So it's been an insane week. I think what contributed the most to my hectic week was my lack of time with God. I hardly spent time in the Word. I felt very disconnected and a little lost. Some days I would open my bible and read...nothing. I couldn't feel God's presence very abundantly. Now, He was here. He always will be, I just couldn't feel it.

   Finally Sunday came. I love Sundays. I have church in the morning, then I'm usually with my friends all day until youth group in the evening. What could be better? So I have to bike 5 miles to my church and I get up super early to go because I go with my older brother who helps clean up and get everything ready for church. I love riding my bike but yesterday I just didn't have the strength emotionally or physically. I had to stop halfway there because I was practically hyperventilating. It wasn't the greatest way to start the day.

   But with the week I had just had and the way my day had started off I was really craving church. Just to be with God in His house and to be surrounded by others that loved Him too. It was amazing. The sermon was really good, it was part of a series we've been doing called "Be Imitators Of Christ." Then I walked to my friends house and we talked about a lot of different things, the bible came up often. Then for youth group we played a bunch of different tag games. It was fun. I loved running around and being crazy with my closest friends. Just being with those people is enough to make me happy. A lot of my church friends I grew up with so I've known them my whole life, and others  I'm just getting to know but I love them just as much. Then at the end of the night we did the lesson/talk. Amazing as usual. Small groups were good too.

   Everything about Sunday gave me energy and filled me up. (The sermon in the morning was about not looking for worldly things to fill you up, but to let Christ fill you.) So it really felt good to be filled up with God. Now I am ready to do whatever it is He needs me to do. Right now He's telling me to "Be still and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10) To have faith and not worry. One of my youth group leaders said "Faith is the opposite of fear." I really like that. I say it a lot. Because it's true. So this week don't let fear rule you, have faith. Even if you've had a crazy week just be still and let Christ fill you up. Because there's nothing on this earth that can do that.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Leader Status

Just some random stuff.......

My new all geekiness blog is now (much like the Death Star) FULLY OPERATIONAL! Yay! I decided to go with the same name as my Twitter username, Geek For God. You can check it out by following the link below.
Now for the real reason I'm blogging...
   I am super excited that my church's AWANA program is starting back up next week! AHHHHH!!!!!!! I have been a Sparky leader for a while now and I LOVE my kids! Like, LOVE them! But this year I'm going to be moving up to be with the older kids! I'm super excited! I was kinda scared at first because they told me to pick which one I wanted to do and I told them I would pray about it and get back to them next week, then I ended up having to make the decision on the spot, and I chose to be with the TNTers. But I'm really glad I did. I really feel like this is going to be a good year. I know this is what God wanted me to do.

   I'm totally excited but yet at the same time I'm worried. The TNTers are crazy and to be a leader in that age group you need to be outgoing. REALLY outgoing. Most of you know I am quite shy, though I have gotten a lot better. I'm also kinda worried that they won't like me as much as they like the other leaders. But the think I'm really worried about the most is talking for group time. The TNT leader said if any of us wanted to speak just let him know. I was like


   But I have no idea what to speak about.

   I'm also scared they won't like it or I won't be as confident on stage as the others. But I do know God will give me the words and He will tell me what to speak on. So I'm not going to worry about that. I have always taken my role as a leader very seriously. I know how I viewed my leaders when I was that young. I remember some of my favorite leaders. One was my dad, and another was a 17 year old girl. I loved her! I always think of her when I consider my role as a leader, because that's how I want my TNTers to see me. I want them to grow up and be like "My favorite leader was Faith!" Another leader I had was a women from my church. She's another of my inspirations for being a leader. A few years ago I even had the privilege of being her sons leader. It was amazing!

   I love my AWANA kids so very much! I pray for them all the time and I hope that I have impacted/will impact them in big ways! I know God has some crazy plans ready for this year and I'm so excited to see what they are! Prayers would also be appreciated. May the Force be with you!

Monday, September 3, 2012

I'm Still Fighting

I was going to post this on my new Star Wars blog (ahhhh!:D) but I decided it would be better here since I've been blogging along and informing you of my battle with my blood disease ITP.
   The other day I was reading a book from The New Jedi Order series; Ruin by James Luceno. At the beginning of the series one of my favorite characters got sick and now they might be able to heal her because of something they found. But they don't know why she's sick (sound familiar yet?) and they're afraid it might only make things worse. They had tried it on someone else but it only gave them temporary healing. Not permanent. So as I was reading something she said stuck out at me.
"Besides, at this point, I'll accept temporary.....But this illness has been a part of me for over a year now. It's been my challenge, and I've fought it every way I know how. But it's winning Luke. It's winning."
    That caught my attention. It seems me and Mara were in the same predicament. Mara's a fighter. That's what she does. But since she got sick she wasn't able to fight. They needed her to rest. Now it's been a year and no healing came to her. In that line she admitted that she had been doing everything she could but the sickness was still winning. The thing about that was on the next page she takes the medicine. And it works.
   Sometimes you feel like you can't win. Like there is no way you can fight another day. But when you feel low, like your losing, healing may be right around the corner. So keep fighting.

   That brings me to another Mara Jade quote from earlier in the series. From Michael A. Stackpole's Onslaught.
"As long as I'm fighting, I'm not dying. And I'm not done fighting just yet."
   Yesterday I had my own personal victory. I played dodgeball at my youth group for the first time since I got sick. I finally felt like myself again. That was me fighting. I'n not giving up. Healing will come. And it may even be right around the corner.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

My Mommerz

Hey. Sorry I kinda walked off the face of the earth for a little while. I just haven't had much to blog about. I'm also losing my mind thinking about making a new blog for all Star Wars stuff. (I hate change....and I have no idea what to call it. Any suggestions would be helpful!) But I was just thinking about something to blog about when I thought of something. I want to tell you about someone very important to me: My Mom.

   Some know her as Mrs. Kayte, or Faith's mom, or you might even now her by her blog Mommy's Coffee Time. But most people know her as Mommerz. A lot of my friends call her that. Everyone loves my mom. She's not just a mom to her actual 8 kids, she's the "mom" to many of my friends. They all know that they can call her Mom. Along with having 8 kids she's also "adopted" a few. They're close friends of my family and we call them our siblings. It's really cool.

   Now your probably thinking "So what's so cool about Faith's mom?" Well if you know her then you can answer that. But for those of you who don't.....let me tell you some things about my mom.

   She's practically superwomen. She's the mother of 7 crazy kids...and me. On top of that she homeschools ALL OF US! So she has to be with us 24/7. And she doesn't even get paid! She's also taking online college classes for web design and will even get people who want websites done. She does all of that and still has time to defeat The Lord Of The Rings: War In The North video game with my older brother. So yeah. She's awesome. But there's more. She's an incredible women of God and I couldn't have asked for a more amazing lady to be my mother. She's taught me a lot. She's always encouraging my friends and the other women of our church. Just the other day a lot of women (and young women) got together and my mom led us in bible study. My Mom is always striving to be better, she pursues God with her whole life. Even though she does so much she always has time for us. Her children. She loves talking to us and spending time with us.

   As if that wasn't enough her life story is pretty inspiring too. She was born with a heart defect and wasn't supposed to live. IF she lived she was never ever EVER supposed to have kids. Clearly the doctors didn't know God's plans for her.

   Other amazing/random things about My Mommerz:

  • She's a geek. (See where I get it from?) 
  • She loves Star Wars and Lord Of The Rings
  • She really likes playing video games with my big brother.
  • She's secretly a ninja. ( maybe that's not entirely true...)
   So in case you didn't get the picture: I love my mom. A lot. She's so amazing even Mckayla Maroney would be impressed.

   Dear Mom,
I love you. Thank you for all that you do. You inspire me and you mean so much to me. Thank you for all that you've taught me. Thank you for always believing in me and praying for me. Your always there for me when I need you to be. Thanks for all the nights when I was little and I couldn't sleep because of my leg cramps. For staying by me until I fell asleep. For letting me crawl into your bed when I had nightmares. Thank you for encouraging me to write and giving me the tools to learn. I love talking to you and spending time with you. I'm sorry I'm not always the kind of daughter I should be. But I'm trying. Thank you for everything. Your incredible and I love you to pieces! I LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!!!

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Yesterday Is Gone

Hey! So I just got back from a weekend retreat with my church and God has been telling me some things lately and I've been super excited to blog again! So, my church goes on this weekend "camping" trip every year (We stay in cabins so its not real camping) and last year...well, to sum up last year: it was pretty much the best weekend ever especially for some certain people. We made a lot of new friends and bonded and had really great fellowship. We were also really crazy and had a ton of fun. So this year we wanted to make it just like last year. But last year we never planned it; it just happened. You can't really plan things like that. But we tried to this year and...let's just say it didn't go as we had planned. We had been waiting all year to do it and our plans got ruined. Nothing went the way we had wanted it to.

   So while everyone was sad that it didn't go the same way, I changed the way I looked. It wasn't last year. It never will be. But I looked at what was happening then and now. Sure, we didn't do what we did the year before but this was a new year. Things change. This year has been a year of change for me. I hate change. But God has been teaching me to let go of the past and look forward. Yesterday is gone. You can't go back, you can't change anything. It's good to reflect on things but you can't live in the past. Look at what you have now and all you have to be thankful for! Look forward! There is nothing you can do to change your past or go back to it. Be thankful it happened, but you can't live in your memories. You must move on. It took me a while to realize that but today is a new day. Move on!

   Sorry that was so short. I really was expecting it to be long. Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

When You Want To Give Up...

A girl I follow on Tumblr inspired me to write this post. I've just been thinking about all the broken and hopeless people in this world. I'm homeschooled so I don't come across many people in desperate need. But I always come across people on my Tumblr and Twitter pages that need my help. My job in life is to encourage people. I try to do that daily. I feel like that's something God has called me to do. To be a light for people in need. Sometimes I feel sad because I don't actually know people who struggle constantly. But one day I somehow came across this girl on Tumblr. She's saved and yet she struggles with self harm and depression. She would post about her struggles and how hard it was and it would break my heart. I could hardly wrap my head around the fact that there are people who hurt so much in the world where they inflict serious pain on themselves and want to end their lives. So this blog is for them. For the people that are struggling through each and every day. For the people that feel like they can't press on anymore.
   This is for you.
   You can do this. There has never been a day in your life where you've walked alone. God is with you. The world is going to feed you lies. Lies that say your not important, no one loves you, your ugly, your worthless, no one would care if you died. That's not the truth. God has a plan for your life and He has made you to be so much more then this! Never stop fighting. You can overcome anything your dealing with. When this world beats you down and you don't think you can do it, use Gods strength. When you can't walk anymore, God will carry you. There is nothing you can't do with God. All of this pain that your going through right now, that is going to make you stronger. You can fight! Never surrender. One day you can look back on this and say "I did it. I made it." You are so strong, a lot stronger then you give yourself credit for. You say you aren't loved, yet that's such a lie! There are people that care about you more then you could possibly know! I'm going to quote my youth leader and say "If you saw yourself the way God see's you, you would never feel insecure again." When God looks at He see's beauty. He see's this beautiful creation and He looks on you with love! You are His child! When you hurt, His heart aches for you. I know because my heart aches for you. And God loves you SO much more so how much more must He feel for you?! Listen to me and hear the truth. You. Are. Loved. Freedom comes today. You don't have to hurt yourself anymore. You don't need to cry. God has come to heal you. All of your scars and wounds and heart breaks, God has come to heal. John 16:33 says "These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble, but take courage for I have overcome the world." He has overcome. So this is your day. Today is the day you fight. Today you will fight and never surrender. God is for you, what can man do to you?

   Let me wash you with words of truth to undo the lies. You are beautiful. You are wanted, loved, special, amazing and created with purpose. You are strong. You have courage. You can do this. You are NOT alone. Never think that you are.

   So you have 2 options really. You can remain in your pain and hurt and suffering...or you can choose to let it go. Give it to God. Let Him be your strength. Come to freedom. You don't have to live this life. You can be free.  If anyone ever needs anything PLEASE, I'm begging you, send me a message!!! I'm praying that whoever reads this will be blessed and healed. Know that I am praying for you always. You are loved.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Looking For Angels

This is gonna be a short post considering I really don't feel like writing today but I just wanted to get this out there. The other day I was listening to a song called Looking For Angels by Skillet. Let me tell you something about this song: It's amazing! It's about helping people who need help. Those who are oppressed and it's really a sad song. It's about people who are going through life looking for angels. Who are just dying to know that God is there. Everyone is looking for an angel. Someone who will love them and just show Jesus. I don't know if you've heard this before but I hear a lot of people say "You may be the only 'Jesus' someone will ever see." People who may not know Jesus might come to know Him through you!

   This song always touched me a lot because I love helping people. But for some reason I heard it differently this time. We have to be like angels for people. Isn't that a crazy thought? We can be a light for someone in darkness. Not just like, homeless people or people obviously going through a hard time. For everyone! Because you never know who could need you. We can be all the difference in the world to someone. I would know. Because I can think of so many people who have been like "angels" to me. God is amazing like that. Like when I pray, God uses people to be an answer to my prayers and its SO cool! What's even cooler is when God answers my unsaid prayers. Like sometimes He just knows that I need cheering up and all of the sudden I have a funny text from someone. Just, little random things like that.

   Ok, Yes, I need to say this again because its just SO COOL! I love the little things. That's something you need to know about me. I love it when people do silly little things for me. I know I always try to do little things for people because I know how happy it would make me if someone did it for me. So right now think "What can I do to make someone smile?" You can make someone's day just a little brighter, make their load a little lighter. So as you go throughout your day just look for little things you can do to help someone. Also, if someone does something for you...thank them. That can give them some encouragement too! It's crazy like...I can't even imagine. I've had some people do crazy things for me and I often think about what it's like if I were them. If God randomly put this person on my heart to do a silly thing for...would I listen? Would I have enough courage to act in kindness? I don't know. But if God ever tells me to do something, I want to listen. Because my goal in life is to be a light and a reflection of Christ.

   So yeah. Sorry I was kind of rambling. I'm just trying to think about all this stuff so I had to put all my thoughts somewhere. God is good. Listen to Him. Be a light today!

Friday, July 27, 2012

A Story To Give Hope To The Homeless: Part 5

I'm way behind on this but better late then never right? Well, 2 years ago I had just left a homeless shelter and then spent some time at Camp. After Camp I moved in with a young women from our church and her son. Me and my sister moved in there. Into their 2 bedroom apartment. This women had a lot going on in her life and really, she couldn't take in two girls. But she did. She opened up her house to us like we were family. But we ended up living there at least a month and a half. Maybe 2 months. That in of itself was significant. I hadn't stayed anywhere for over a month since my apartment. She helped me with school and she would stay up late to talk to me and my sister. She would ask us about how we felt.

   But of course lice was going around so we ended up getting it at some point of us living there. I could go on rants for days about that. I don't really mind having lice, but I despise how I'm treated when (and months after) I have lice. I feel like an outcast. Because it would be the end of the world if someone got a stinkin bug on their head so don't you dare go within a 20 foot radius of my kid! Ok, I'll take a breather. But that's how I felt. It hurt me a lot emotionally. But this women...she didn't panic that we had lice. Not even a little. She set rules: Vacuum the bed every day and we'll comb your hair every night. And we worked through it. She made it fun. Every night while she combed through our hair we would talk and paint our nails. She asked us about how we felt being homeless and really allowed us to talk about how we felt. So I was okay. I actually enjoyed it.

   I remember one day she took me and some friends to Navy Pier and I rode the Ferris wheel for the first time. Yeah I was scared out of my mind and I practically cried a was fun. My family would often visit us while we were living there and spend the day with us. It was truly an amazing experience that I could never thank them enough for.

   But of course that day came. They were leaving for Camp. Meaning: We had to leave. That day was the first time I almost panicked. We had been homeless for over 5 months now and that night...I was scared. No one could take us. No one. I can see it all. I was standing outside a friends house by our van and the adults were talking. My family had to leave the shelter soon (because they would only allow you to say for so long.) so me and my sister would just sleep in the car for a few days. No big deal. We would be ok. But still...after 5 months we were finally out of options. With no where else to go. Then a women steps in. She volunteered to take us for a few days, until my family left the shelter and we would then move somewhere else. Again: God provided. Even when it got scary, He was there. So we stayed there. Of course, with me being as emotional as I am, I cried myself to sleep. I missed the family I had lived with. I hated goodbyes. I cried myself to sleep the next night too. I missed them so much it hurt. But this other family I stayed with for a few days was very gracious to me and I am so thankful that God provided!

   I still held on to the verse I had heard back in March. Though I couldn't remember the reference at the time I remembered that God spoke to me and said "I will build you a house." 5 months. No house. Patience. I would need some. But I knew God had a plan. He always had. Not once had I had to be actually homeless and live on the streets. Though I almost had to sleep in my car, I would have been fine. I still had so much to be grateful for. God's hand was in it all. Slowly molding me and setting things into motion to create a beautiful story.

Thursday, July 26, 2012


Well, recently I've been listening to this song called War by Trip Lee a lot. And its really gotten me thinking. The lyrics are crazy good and I love the picture it puts in your head. So I've been thinking about war and this fight that we're in spiritually. This also might have to do with the fact I'm in LOVE with the show Falling Skies which is a show about war and how I've been reading The New Jedi Order series which is also about war. So yeah. That might explain something.

   But we are in a battle. A spiritual battle. God has been calling me to read Ephesians 6:10-19 lately. Its about the full armor of God. I love it when they use analogies in the bible because it gives you a picture and helps you to understand it better. God does that for me a lot, He'll teach me something using things I love or have more knowledge of. But this chapter is really cool. God gives us everything we need to stand firm. A helmet (of salvation), the belt (of truth), shoes (of peace), the shield (of faith), and the sword (of the spirit.) In Ephesians 6:10 it says "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might." Not our own strength. But to rely on Him because He is so much stronger! We are weak. So let God be your strength.

   We have an enemy. The Devil. He will do anything to cause us to sin or believe lies. But we have our shields (I don't know about you but my personal shield looks like Captain America's.) to deflect the flaming arrows of the evil one. In our world today we are lied to all the time. Lies are everywhere. We are constantly being told what to think and how to live. But we need to put on the belt of truth. The belt it what will hold it all together. We are held together by truth.

   Then there's the other kind of war. The war inside. This concept came from a song by Switchfoot called The War Inside. But it's so true! It says "Every fight comes from the fight within." Let that sink in for a second. Everyone has a fight going on within them. Something they struggle with. Sometimes the fight even comes out. Like when your internally struggling with something and then someone does a little thing to upset you and you blow up on them. Of course its not their fault. There might be a war raging on within you. Ask God to help you win that war. Whatever it is. Use the armor that He gave you. You can overcome this. Whatever it is your facing, you can defeat. Be strong in the Lord. Not in your own strength. The Lord's.

   Sometimes the fight seems impossible to win. In the beginning of War (by Trip Lee) he describes the war we're in. It's insane. He says how hard it is and  describes the destruction and chaos that's going on. But then the King comes in and rescues us. He saves us. I would recommend listening to that song. Its amazing. Overcome the war inside. God promises that He'll win the spiritual battle. We know that from the book of Revelation. But the war that rages within you. Let go of whatever is holding you back and give it to God. You don't have to fight this on your own. There are people in your life to help you, and God will be with you. Always.

Today you fight. You will be strong.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Men Of God

Hello! I've just had so many blog idea's running through my head since I got back from camp! I don't even know what to say! At camp I was so overwhelmed with love! It seemed that everywhere I went someone would do something nice for me. Not just friends. But random people! This really inspired me! I could blog for hours about how happy those little things made me but I believe I've already blogged about something very similar. But today I want to talk to a little bit of a different audience then I normally try to reach out to. Considering my blog looks super girly and all that. I want to talk about what I think a gentlemen is. On my missions trip and camp I got to encounter many gentlemen who were on fire for God! It was so inspiring! I think that nowadays we rarely see guys like that. Guys who love God with all their hearts and really show it! I love seeing people worship and up at camp worship was taken to a whole new level for me! People were TOTALLY undignified! It was amazing! There were especially this group of people who were totally all in it! I loved it! Seeing them worship has really inspired me! I think its amazing for a guy to love God and to be able to worship without caring what others might think.
   Also, when I think of guys I think "Leaders." Because that's what God has called you to be! I think Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid nor dismayed for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." This is one of my favorite verses because fear has always been a hard thing for me. But I especially think that you, as guys, should really take heart what this verse says. God has commanded you to be strong! To rise up and lead! Not to brag or anything but I think my older brother is a fine example to an aspiring man of God. He was one of the student leaders on my missions trip and man...I was so mad I wasn't on his team. He is such a good leader!
   Another important quality for guys is to have respect and love. Show respect to everyone, but especially to girls! Don't push her to cross her boundaries or anything. Give her your utmost respect.
   Along with that, you must be selfless. Putting others interests above your own. Of course, girls, you gotta do that too. Be kind to everyone. I was amazed by how courteous and kind everyone was at camp. You should desire to just be kindness! All the time! Think outside the box! I had a few guys go out of their way for me and the impact you can have on a person is crazy! But it could be just be, I love looking at all the little details. Sometimes it takes courage and you may never know if you helped at all, but do it because God calls you to be a light!
   One more thing: Help each other! Encourage each other! If you see one of your brothers falling, help him! God gives us people in our lives to help us, and some to help. So find all those people.
   But the most important thing about being a man of God is actively pursuing Christ! Always try to live your life for Him, not to please others. God has some big plans ahead of you. So it's time to step up and be courageous! I have to post a link to an amazing song that should really inspire you as guys to step up, be audacious, and live your life for Christ and not fall into the patterns of this world. So I hope to see a lot more guys on fire for God! Thanks for reading!
^Man Up Anthem-116 Clique

Thursday, July 19, 2012


Well since its 7am and I've hardly slept so I wanted to blog. Since I've already watched every single episode of the new season of Falling Skies.....ok, moving on. I wanted to do something for God. Because I'm awake for a reason. I should not be up. But since I have extra time on my hands I wanted to use it for Him. Instead I've been watching TV and checking my Facebook and Twitter and etc. But I just want to thank God for everything He's given me. Yes, I have my struggles. A few of them. But I have a roof over my head, food in my pantry, and a family that loves me to pieces. On top of all of those things God has given me blessings beyond all that I ever deserved! I have a TV with cable, friends that put up with my weirdness, a phone, an amazing best friend, insurance that's paying for my braces, and gluten free brownies! I have so much more then I deserve. God gave me eternal life. What more could I have asked for? But He has blessed me with SO much!
   Today I couldn't sleep because my braces hurt to bad but I didn't want to sit here and cry and feel sorry for myself. Jesus went through far more pain then I did. I will live. This pain is just momentary. It'll hopefully be gone within the next few days. So yeah. Today, thank God for all that He's given you. Because each of us our blessed.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Star Wars Quotes

I'm going to go all Geek on you guys but I just wanted to share a few (and by a few I mean a book full) of some amazing lines from the Star Wars universe. I have debated making a separate blog for all my geeky posts but until I come  to a solid conclusion you'll have to deal with this. I have all my posts labeled so you can find them by topic. Loki dokie? Cool. This is gonna be super long I might not even get to put all of them in it. Some are going to be funny and some will be seriously. But enjoy!

"Every Jedi Knight has to be his own light, because the light shouldn't go out just because the Jedi dies."-Anakin Solo

"Urgency without panic, action without thoughtlessness."-Corran Horn

"Selflessness is the only antidote to evil. It provides a light that destroys the dark."-Corran Horn

"Those who have their mouths open all the time generally have their ears shut."-Barriss Offee

"The antidote to the dark side is the light side."-Kirana Ti

"If you cannot recognize the man in the mirror, it's time to step back and see when you stopped being yourself."-Corran Horn

"Lies come easier then truth, and at a lower cost."-Qui-Gon Jinn

"Do not meet hate with hate, meet it with purpose."-Qui-Gon Jinn

"The darker the shadow, the brighter the light that casts it."-Tahiri Veila

"There's a difference between finding trouble in your path and going out of your way searching for it."-Jacen Solo

"The unknown is a place where we can discover who we really are."-Obi-Wan Kenobi

"One can fail at a task but still learn the lesson."-Luminara Unduli

"Don't confuse refusing help with not needing it."-Leia Organa

"Never step into the same river twice can you. Each time the river hurries on, each time he that steps has changed."-Yoda

"Don't lose track of praise even in a stream of constructive criticism. Or vice versa."-Luke Skywalker

"I get it now...everything that's happened all my life...You shaped me to do this."-Cade Skywalker

"I can change. It won't be easy but it'll be worth it."-Mara Jade

"Remember I promised that when all seemed dark, I would be a light for you as you were for me."-Aayla Secura

"There's rights...and there's right."-Mara Jade

"You can't hear a whisper if you're constantly shouting."-Mara Jade

"I want you to know-all that anger and hate-I didn't bring it with me. Tell Jaina I forgive her."-Jacen Solo

"Being abandoned to my enemies, abandoned by one for whom I had once considerable affection and respect was like being murdered...and surviving."-Jacen Solo

"I have our tactic. When the rocks fall, we get out of the way."-Ben

"Anakin, your name reminds me of hope. Hope that even if a Jedi uses his powers for the dark side, he can still choose to turn back to the light."-Leia Organa

Well, I still have many more amazing quotes where that came from. I also have lists of funny ones. But in order to not bore people I won't make it any longer. Did I miss any good ones? Put them in the comments or tell me what you think! Which ones were your favorites?

Friday, July 6, 2012

A Story To Give Hope To The Homeless: Part 4

After we left our friends apartment we moved into my grandfathers basement. My grandpa was in the hospital at the time and so his house was vacant. We stayed in the tiny basement for two weeks until we had to leave. My older brother stayed the night a few times while we were there so we had our family together again for two days. But then the time came. We couldn't stay in the basement any more and there was no where else to go. We had to move to a homeless shelter. The shelter was actually very nice. We got two big bedrooms and two bathrooms and the doors locked so we didn't have to worry about people stealing our things. There were a few negative things about it though. We couldn't have sleepovers and we needed to be back in the shelter by 10pm. The problem with the No Sleepovers rule was that me and my sister were planning on going to camp that month, but once we signed out...we could never come back.
   But we moved in anyway and we decided to worry about camp when the time came. Living at the shelter was interesting. Mostly boring at times. The food there wasn't that great but we went anyway. Every day we would go to a Walgreen's that was two blocks away and we would get a little snack. We ended up becoming good friends with one of the ladies who worked there. We say we "adopted her." Even now I call her my big sister. I honestly don't think my 3 year old sister realizes that we aren't actually related to her...oh well. I'm not going to be the one to break her heart.
   But there was so much pain and sadness confined in that shelter. Most of its occupants were single mothers of many children. It broke my heart to see them struggle. They needed Christ SO badly! Looking back on it, I wish I would have done something. I often smiled towards this little girl during the meals and played Peek-A-Boo. Her smile made the meals less boring. I didn't like sitting in that cafeteria while my siblings took forever to finish eating but that was all I did. I never shared the gospel or did anything. But I did pray for them. Every day. Even now. I was content with being in a homeless shelter, but because I knew God had a plan. These people didn't know that. They had no hope.
   It was a crazy month. One day the fire alarm went off at 6am and we had to evacuate the building. We lived 4 blocks away from the beach...we only went there twice. But I can still remember the day I left. I packed my bags and went down into the lobby with my family. Every day when we left we had to sign out on a sheet of paper, so when I left my mom had to sign a piece of paper saying I was leaving. I watched her hand as it shook to sign it. I told myself I wouldn't cry, but when my mom shed a tear I lost it. We both cried as we went out to the car to take me to the bus that would take me to camp for a week. It was sad. I cried when I left on the bus and I waved goodbye to my family. I cried like a little girl. Yet God still had a plan. He continued to guide me and I didn't know it then, but He was making me to be the person He wants me to be. Every time I moved, every time someone hurt me, every tear I shed...that was all God.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Missions Trip 2012 I don't even know where to begin. I feel so overwhelmed with emotion. Like, I miss it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! I got to do a backyard bible study for kids living in government funded housing. The very first day I just knew I loved them. The ages were from 2 years old all the way to 13. Even some adults stayed the last day. It was crazy. These kids had such a knowledge of the bible it blew my mind! The kids had adorable southern accents! hahaha. I got to witness to at least 3 people on my crews mission site. Me and my friend also got to have a bible debate with a super smart 12 year old. He was crazy good. I learned just how easy it is to share the gospel. Now, I know its not always easy, but it's a lot easier then I thought. I also got to share my testimony with one of the older girls and I taught the bible study once. I almost cried. The kids were incredible. I will NEVER forget them.
   The worship was mind blowing! One night I got to stand on a huge balcony platform. It was so cool to see all these teenagers lifting their hands and praising God. The speaker was AWESOME! He was also super funny! The theme was Audacious. I certainly want to be audacious! I just want to shout about God's love to everyone! I started to make a mental list of people who might need Christ and me and my friend are working on ways to witness to them! I can FEEL myself changing every day, slowly becoming to person God wants me to be. I am meant to be courageous. I'm so excited!
   Another thing I learned SO much about is kindness! Everyone there was so.very.nice! It was crazy! I had like 5 people tell me they loved my shirt (with much enthusiasm may I add.), some girl offer me Twizzlers, and everyone was just randomly introducing themselves to me! It was amazing! But I also learned a lot from my church group and my crew. Well, when I worship I usually like to do it alone. It just helps me concentrate I guess. Well...people from my church decided I couldn't be alone. The first day one of my good friends came up to me while I was crying and gave me a hug and sat by me. Then the next day some other kid who isn't exactly my friend came and sat by me and told me he didn't want me to be alone. Then the next day I sat in the very back row and some kid I didn't really know at all came up and sat by me. These people literally made me SOO happy! I'm still smiling about it. Yeah, I really had wanted to be alone but I was to happy to be mad. I love it when people think outside the box. How much courage did it take to go and sit by a girl they didn't really know? That's kindness. It really touched me. Mainly because I get so inspired by all the little things that people do. Anything can make me happy.
   I was also so inspired to see the teenage boys on my crew interacting and playing around with the kids. One day I looked over and all the kids were playing follow the leader with a guy from my crew. Among other things like that I saw them witnessing, playing with the toddler and doing crazy handshakes with them. It was incredible!
   Wow. I wish I could tell you every single detail about it but I can't. I need some sleep. haha. Maybe I'll tell you more about the trip tomorrow.!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Missions Trip!

Hey! Today's the day! At midnight tonight I'll be heading off for my second missions trip! Me and my amazing crew of 15 (I think) will be doing a backyard bible study for kids! We don't really know to much but I think we're going to be doing it for kids from families with low income. When I heard they were from families with not a lot of money, God tugged at my heart. Then they mentioned that some of the parents may stay too, and that we should talk to them to be a light for them. Wow. Yeah, God spoke to me. This hit close to home for me. Some of these people were living in government founded homes because they can't afford their own. I've been praying a ton that God will use me in the lives of these families. I want to share my story and all that God has brought me through. Please pray that I'll be able to do that.
   Also, I'm really hoping I'll have the energy that I need. It's going to be an 11 hour car ride. So all night while your sound asleep in your comfortable beds, I'll be in a huge hot van full of sweating teenagers. Yeah. I hope I'll be able to sleep. I'm also super tired already and my head is pounding.
   Please keep me and all 34 of us that will be going on this trip. Pray that God will use us and keep us safe.
   Thank you! Have an amazing week and may the Force be with you!

Thursday, June 21, 2012


Hello! Today is kind of going to be a mix of a few topics. I wanted to do another Hope To The Homeless but I think I might need to wait another week for that. Today I want to share some news and share a quote. As you can imagine its a Star Wars quote. This quote has actually helped me a lot and it comes from one of my favorite Star Wars characters. Mara Jade. They made her to be so wise! I love it!
"Look, I cried when the Jade's Fire crashed. A ship, a thing, and yet I cried over it. What does that say about my priorities?"
   SO true! Being a teenage girl I tend to cry about everything. I cry when I can't go somewhere, I cry when I listen to music, I cry when I can't find my phone, or when my DVD player won't work and I can't watch Star Wars. I cry a lot. But what's really worth your tears? Should you really cry when you burn dinner? Is it really necessary to have a meltdown when the boy you like, likes someone else? No not really. Focus on things that matter. When you find yourself crying over unimportant things, re-organize your priorities! Count your blessings! We have far to much to be thankful for! Any time I want to cry I think of that quote. Ok, don't misunderstand me, God gave us the ability to cry for a reason. And its not wrong to cry. Sometimes I enjoy crying because its a chance to let my emotions out. But when you sit and feel sorry for yourself and complain and whine, that's when it has to stop. When it stops you from being able to go through your day. Think about all that God has done for you and be thankful! Because there's always someone going through something a whole lot worse then you.
   Ok, that was a lot shorter then I expected. Much like General Grievous from Star Wars episode 3. (Sorry, cheesy Star Wars reference. "General Grievous, your shorter then I expected."-Anakin Skywalker.) So now for my news! On Saturday (technically Sunday, we leave at midnight) I will be headed off for my second missions trip! I am excited. Not nearly as excited as I was for last year. A lot of things will be different but I know it'll be fun. I'm praying that God will use me and my life story to change lives! I'll be helping out a backyard bible study. The people attending will be from families with not a lot of money and I think they live in houses for some sort of government housing. I might get to talk to some of the parents of these kids so I'm really hoping I can be a light and be AUDACIOUS! (Since thats the theme this year.) So yeah! Prayers would be appreciated. I'll be gone all week so I won't post any new blogs. But I can't wait for the missions trip!

Friday, June 15, 2012

The New Design!

Hello! Well today I've been working on re-designing my blog! Fun, huh? Its so sad because I hate changing things but it really needs to be changed. Oh well. Goodbye old template, colors and design. Out with the old and in with the new! But I am very grateful and happy for all the new gadgets I'm getting! You can now share my blog via Facebook or Twitter, follow my blog by email, and even translate my blog into new languages! Wow! I'm super excited! Another thing I've added are my Tweets! You can now follow me and see what I'm up to on Twitter! Though all these gadgets are currently on the right side panel I am working on moving the around since now the left side looks deserted.
   Oh! I almost forgot! I added a new page to my blog! It's just to display some of my pictures. Since I love taking pictures I would like to share them with you! I'm probably going to add more pages but it might take some time. Comment or something to tell what you think!
   Some other ideas that were floating around in my head were creating another blog for all Star Wars stuff. Because a lot of my personal friends read my blog and since they aren't geeks like me I would hate to bore them, but on the other hand a lot of geeks I know online read my blog and I don't want to bore them either. Hmm..... decisions. I was also kinda thinking about changing my blog title since Princess Faith is the name my mom recommended for me when I got this blog 3 years ago. Now that I actually have a few followers I might want to change it. But I'm a daughter of the King, a princess, so it fits. But it makes me seem to girly...anyhow, I like it and how my mom gave me the name. We'll see what happens.
   So let me know what you think of the new look! May The Force Be With You!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012


What is fear? Why do we have fear? What makes us so afraid? Really think about those questions. I mean, God promises that all things will work out for our good. (Romans 8:28) Not only that but he says "do not fear" exactly 365 times in the bible. As I was always taught; if God says something, its important. If God says something twice, its really important. If God says something 365 times, you had better listen up. So He's not kidding when He says "do not fear." Yet what do we do? We're afraid. I could write a book on all the things I'm afraid of. Heights, roller coasters, the dark, creepy ally ways, horror movies, the list goes on and on. But I'm also afraid of other things like telling people about Christ. I mean, God is the only way to heaven. If they don't believe, they pay that price by burning in hell. I don't want anyone to go through that. Yet I can't even bring up the topic.
   Why do we let fear control us? Are we afraid of what might happen? What holds us back from stepping out? On the topic of spreading the gospel, I know its hard. I've only talked about Jesus with a non-believer twice I think. We like to stay at home in our comfort zone where we're safe. We don't have to take any risks or anything of the sort. But God calls us to step out! It's a scary thing. Fear is something that's always had a tight grip on me and it brings me down a lot. But think about it like this: what if someone were to die in a car accident and because you didn't step out of your comfort zone for a minute, they're in hell. What if something you said would have made all the difference in the world? I've said it before and I'll say it again: words are powerful. They can be used as weapons of destruction...or they can be used to build someone up. They can help make someone day a little brighter, make their load a little lighter. It's scary to step up and be audacious. I've been praying for courage to be audacious for a while now. But sometimes you just gotta do it. Don't think. I've always been one to just do things, even when I know I'll be terrified. Because I want to overcome fear. I don't want fear to rule me. I want to live my life trusting God. Knowing that He has a plan.
   A lot of the time God will call you to do things that scare you to death. But He's not going to call you to do something without the means to do it. When He gives you a mission, He knows your fully equipped to do it. He has given you the full armor of God. (Ephesians 6:10-22.I like to picture that in a lot of cool ways. You could go all Star Wars and do a lightsaber for the sword of the Spirit, or Marvel and Captain America's shield for the shield of Faith. Have some fun with it.) But God will give you everything you need to accomplish your task.
   So what's your excuse? Why do you continue to let fear rule you? Moses' excuse when God called him to tell the Pharaoh to let the people go (Exodus 4) was "I'm not good at public speaking." Worst excuse ever. God was like "Really Moses? You don't trust me?" One of my favorite verses is God's response. (Exodus 4:11-12) "Who has made mans mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now then go and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you are to say." Whenever God calls me to step out I want to say "Uh, God, remember I hate talking to people?" Then I remember that verse.
   The reason I used evangelizing and public speaking in my analogy is because that's something I really struggle with. But this can be applied to anything. God is with you. You don't need to fear. So forget fear. Joshua 1:9 says "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid nor dismayed, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Not only does God tell us to be strong and courageous, He commands us to! So listen up! So lets forget about fear and live to be courageous! You can be a hero. Be fearless.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

A Story To Give Hope To The Homeless: Part 3

After living in my second house in 2 months it was beginning to feel normal to be moving around so much. As the beginning of May came around me and my sister had to leave the place we were staying again. We then moved in with my mom, dad, my brother and my sister. 3 of my brothers were in 2 other places and had a home there for now. So I lived with half my family in a two bedroom apartment with my moms friend and her 4 children. I was very happy to be with some of my family again though it was often very crazy with many little children and at the time we had also gotten head lice. Not fun.
   I could look back on April and see everything. It had been a long month. At the time my mind was crowded and caught in the moment. I could see my tears and my heart was hard as I had fought for my sister. I had felt it was my responsibility to protect her. I knew school had been hard for her so whenever someone would press her or talk to her about school I would stand up for her. I knew she was scared. This was new for her. She was only 9. She couldn't be expected to adjust so fast to a whole new lifestyle. And neither could I. I was horrible. I felt sorry for myself and expected people to feel the same way towards me. I could hardly get through school without crying and often times I would get into fights. So I was almost relieved when I moved. Yet at the same was sad. I was leaving my "sister." My dear friend who had come to be family to me. We had had so many fun times. The odd things we did, the inside jokes, the memories we made. But in May I still had to carry the scars and wounds from some of it and I wasn't quite ready to move on. I was afraid that at church it would be awkward seeing them again knowing everything that had happened and I thought for sure people would think less of me because of it.
   So a new adventure unfolded before me. I was with some of my family at long last and got to be a small light to the unsaved family we were with. Soon enough though my 2 little brothers also came to live with us. We were a family again...minus my older brother. Yes, there was a lot of drama. All 8 kids we 8 and under so lots of fights and screaming took place. But we would make it. We had to.
   One of the things that amazes me is how it all worked out. The redhead I lived with never talked bad about me to my friends, instead she told everyone about the month she had two "sisters." I can talk to them and know that I am forgiven. The feeling of forgiveness is an amazing one. To know that you are not judged by what you have done. Whenever we talk about that month we talk about the fun times. All of the bad has been wiped clean. I am new. I am not defined by the sins I have committed. So for that I am very thankful.
   God continued to mold me during that time. He was shaping me to be the women of God He wants me to be, and He continues to change me with every new day I can feel myself falling more in love with Him.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

For Nothing Will Be Impossible With God

God is incredible. For the past 7 or so months I've been battling a sickness called ITP. It's been hard. I've had to give up many activities I love because bruising could lead to my death. Everyone has been so protective of me and I was waiting on the day that it would all go away. Then I got some news: I would never get better. The average person has a blood platelet count of 120,000 I think. Mine were at 7,000. The doctor said if I ever got to 20,000 in my lifetime she would be very surprised. I wanted to cry. No more dodgeball games or doing stupid things with my friends. One mistake might cost me my life.
   My mom suggested I try going on a gluten free diet. My doctor said it wouldn't work. But we did it anyway. I was determined to get better and nothing anyone could say could stop me. So I tried it. For the past 2 months I had been on a gluten free diet. This was very hard considering how much gluten I used to eat before this. But I did it. Finally the day came. I was on my way to get my platelets checked again. We saw the doctor and she told me again: I would never get better. She pretty much just stomped on my hopes of healing. But they did the test and they said they would call us soon with the results.
   On the way home I listened to music because music always has a way of putting my thoughts into words better then I can. I realized how worried I was about getting better...but really, it didn't matter. Right then I decided that I wasn't going to worry about getting better. I was going to focus on God regardless of my situation. One song that helped me was Cling To You by Trip Lee. The chorus says "Lord, it may get better but it may not. So when I pray God I pray I would trust You whether or not the pain stops. So when the pain falls coming down like rain drops I just gotta cling to You." It doesn't matter what I'm going through. I need to cling to God. He is my hope.
   Well, 3 days later the doctor called. My platelets were at 50,000. My mom was shocked. The doctor was shocked. You know what I said? I told you so. Now, 50,000 isn't completely better, but in just that I overcame all odds. Because no one should ever tell me the odds. I have God. Yes, being gluten free is going to be hard but I'm getting better. For all the people that said I would never get better, when the world said give up, for all those nights I wanted it to just be over. NEVER underestimate my Jesus. NEVER.
   ^This is a link to a song that I LOVE. It's a song that helped me get through this. This is my victory song. It's called Look Away by Thousand Foot Krutch. When people told me it was ok to be afraid, when they told me to just turn away and cry, I said no. Not this time. This time I'm going to be brave. I'm done living in fear, it's time to step up and be courageous.
   This is the my favorite part:
   "Every time, every line, every time you want to say goodbye. Sing every time, every line, every time you want to say goodbye sing
   I will not look away this time. And take all these cuts and make them shine. And all this pain I've held inside, so I can find my way home again. I will not look away this time. Take all these cuts and make them shine. Don't want to be perfect just alright."
   So that's it. When everyone said it was impossible, God said He can do it.