Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Random

Just felt like blogging today to let you know I'm still using this blog.
I know I usually write about moving topics that might make you cry and all that, but today I'm going to be jumping around a lot since nothing major has really happened in my life.
Well last week I had my first real injury since I was diagnosed with ITP. I fell down the stairs at my friends house on our way to a party. I was a little shaken at first. I felt my arm and I had a huge bump. Honestly I wanted to panic. Luckily I resisted the urge to cry and held it together. When I got to the party I put ice on it. Its been getting better since then.
Another thing happening is that I've been looking into self publishing a book! I've wanted to be a writer for quite some time now. I've completed two full books and a couple children's books. But I would LOVE to get published! A lot of prayer is going into this. It's going to take lots of money to accomplish this and if it even gets published I wonder if it would even sell!
Well, God's got His hand on it so we'll see what happens. Thanks again for reading!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Patience

(Note: If you haven't seen Star Wars Episode 1: The Phantom Menace you probably won't have any idea what I'm talking about in this blog post. If you haven't seen it, I VERY highly recommend that you run to the nearest movie store as fast as you can and pick up a copy of The Phantom Menace because your crazy if you haven't seen it! Then you may proceed to reading this blog post.)


Hey! So as usual I was trying to sleep last night and as I was laying down I was thinking. I have been so anxious to be back up and playing sports again. Once God opens the doors for me to play I'll be up and running! I realized I needed a lot of patience. I'm not so good at waiting. I've been so freaked out about not being able to play sports and I've been to busy thinking about the things I'm missing to see what God wants me to learn from this!
Then my train of random thoughts went to how its kind of like how people sometimes come to a standing still point in their faith. Where they want to do stuff for God and their ready to take their next step but God wants them to sit tight at the moment.
Well, sometimes (Actually a lot of times.) my mind translates things or situations into things I can comprehend better. So while I was thinking of that my mind translated that situation into Geek Language. It totally reminded me of that big battle scene at the end of Star Wars: The Phantom Menace where Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon are fighting Darth Maul then Obi-Wan falls behind and when he catches up the shields pop up.
Qui-Gon gets on his knees and waited patiently until the shields went back up, but Obi-Wan was anxious.
When your stuck between the shields, don't feel anxious. God's got a plan. He's got you there. So get down on your knees like Qui-Gon and pray. Soon the shields will be down and you can go take your next step.
Thanks for reading!

Friday, December 9, 2011

"Why...."

In case you didn't read my previous blog I explained how I have a sickness (I guess that's what you could call it.) called ITP. ITP stands for idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura. That pretty much means that they have no idea what causes it. They don't know why it happens.
That got me thinking. Hard.
It's just like a lot of the things that happen to us and they make us ask questions like:
"Why did my dad lose his job?"
"Why did they have to die?"
"Why is my life so hard?"
"Why can't I just fit in?"
"Why did my parents have to get divorced?"
"Why did we get evicted from our home?"
"Why did they have to get sick?"
I've gone through some of that stuff, and I know lots of people struggle with some of those and many more. When bad things happen to us we usually ask "Why?"
The truth is: no one knows. No one on this earth knows why bad things happen to us. But God does. He has a purpose for all the hard things your going through right now. Sometimes it feels like we can't do it. Like our whole world is falling apart.
In March of 2010 I was evicted from my home. I had to live with friends for a year before God finally got me and my family a house. Some days I would be fine and my faith would be rock solid and other days I got tempted to ask "God, why? Why did this happen?"
Now I've got a home and looking back at all the hard things I went through I see it. I see why. I was changed. God has a plan for all the bad things that we go through. He never promised that life wasn't hard, but He promised that He would be there with us.
For some diseases people know why it happens, they know how it comes about. But do they really know WHY it happens? Why does God let people have cancer? Why do I have ITP? I don't know yet. But I have faith that one day I will know why. So for right now, I don't need to know why. I just need to be still and know that God is in control.
"Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Faith Like A Childs

So I have a blood problem called ITP, so I need to go to the hospital once a week to get my blood checked. I go to the pediatric oncology center to get this blood work done. Well, when I was there this week I was sitting in the waiting room reading when I heard a little girl begin to cry. I looked up to see her run after her mom who was being taken to the doctors office. Her dad grabbed her and told her she couldn't follow her mom. She just screamed and cried by the door.
I felt sorry for the little girl then was about to go back to my reading when I noticed a little boy in the waiting room. He couldn't have been older then 5 or six. I assumed he had cancer, he was bald and sat in a wheel chair with his legs crossed. He sat by his mom and watched T.V.
The little boy looked adorable!
When he looked at me I smiled at him then went back to reading.
Every few minutes I would just look up at the boy and wonder how much he must have been through.
Then I noticed the girl was still crying for her mom, I happened to look up. She was in her dad's arms by the door her mom had walked through. Then I looked toward the boy, and he began to move his wheelchair back, then he moved over to the crying girl.
He stopped his chair right by the dad holding her and lifted up his hand as to give her something. I noticed in his extended hand was a sticker.
The girl just screamed at him. Yet he wouldn't go away. He sat there patiently, waiting for her to take his gift. But she just turned away from him and cried. But he wouldn't leave.
Finally the dad told the boy she didn't want the sticker. But his arm was STILL extended for her.
Soon his mom came over and whispered in his ear and began to push his wheelchair away. But he looked back at her with his arm outreached. The mom took the sticker and gave it to the little girls dad, then pushed him back to watch T.V.
Finally the boy looked satisfied.
As he sat there I watched him. He looked...content. He didn't look upset over his situation, he looked at ease. I couldn't explain to you the gleam in his eyes. They sparkled with bravery and courage.
That made me think. How could I, a girl with a simple blood disease that would probably heal, complain? This little boy had something far worse then me, whatever he had. He was in a wheelchair. I thought about all the times I had complained. Because I have ITP I can't risk getting hurt, so that means so sports. Why am I complaining? I can heal from this, I WILL play sports again! This little boy was in a wheelchair...He wont be able to play sports. Ever.
But even with that he was reaching out to help a little crying girl. He was thinking of someone else.
God really spoke to me at the hospital. There are so many things that that little kid taught me by one little act of kindness.
So to everyone else, your one little act of kindness really has a huge impact! It may not impact the person your being kind to, but it might impact someone who just happened to watch. And it just might teach them something.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Questions About Homeschooling

For those of you who didn't know, I'm homeschooled. I have been my whole life. I was in Jr. High the first time I ever stepped into a school. I shadowed my friend at her private school and I took a Spanish class. But thats about the closes I've ever been to going to school.
Whenever I tell someone that I'm homeschooled, I also get asked a series of questions afterwards. Apparently homeschooling is a very foreign thing to most people...Anyway, the first question is usually "Do you get to wear your pajamas to school?!?!?" My response is usually something like ".......Uh......Yeah...." And then they scream how lucky I am. The next question is, of course, "What time do you have to wake up?" "Depends on the day...Sometimes I sleep until 10 and other days I wake up at 7." Some of the other questions are:
"What time do you get out of school?"
"How do you know what to do?"
"Where do you get your school books?"
And the most popular question, "But...where do you get your socialization?"
Just because I'm homeschooled does not mean I don't have a social life. I'm actively involved in my church. On a regular basis I'm at church 4 times a week for youth groups, AWANA program and bible study. Plus I have friends from there that I hang out with on the weekends. I also have friends from a camp I attend every year and we keep in touch over the winter and fall.
For the rest of the questions, my mom gets my school books online.
"How do I know what to do?" I just do the next lesson.
I know your all probably still very confused about homeschooling. I didn't cover all of the strange questions I get. But if you have any questions, comment! Thanks for reading!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

My Reading List

Well since I love to write one thing that helps is reading. I LOVE to read books. I read a lot. Mostly Star Wars books, but in some cases I will read a non Star Wars book. Right now I have so many books that I need to read! I am currently reading Death Troopers by Joe Schreiber. I'm also reading a few books on how to get published. On top of reading those I read my favorite Ultimate X-Men comics. Plus I always need to make sure that I don't forget to read my Bible every day, because that is the most important book. Also on my reading list I have:
The New Jedi Order Series (Multiple authors)
The Young Jedi Knights Series (By Kevin J. Anderson and Rebecca Moesta)
The Force Unleashed 1 and 2 (By Sean Williams)
Galaxy Of Fear series
Jr. Jedi Knights
and any other Star Wars book I can get my hands on! All this reading and its funny how I still have time to write my blogs! Well that's all for today! Bye!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Random Blogging...

Hey! Just wanted to let you know I didn't just fall off the face of the earth or anything. So, I'm kinda bored and I realized that I haven't blogged in a long time. I'm not really sure what I'm going to blog about....hahaha. My writing has been going good. I'm working on writing a new book. It's going alright. So I'm working on a new book plus trying to rewrite my older one. Fun huh? Yeah. Plus having to tackle school. Overall its not that difficult. I doubt anyone enjoyed this blog, I just felt like throwing that out there. I hope you have a fun day! Jesus Saves<3

Monday, October 31, 2011

No...I Don't Celebrate Halloween...

It's that time of year again, and you know what that means. It's the time that I need to explain to everybody why I don't celebrate Halloween. I decided to write about it because I've had at least 15 people freak out on me when I've told them that I've never been Trick Or Treating.
Well, on halloween every year my family and I would read a book called "Mommy, Why Don't We Celebrate Halloween." So let me explain why. It's a long complicated story, so I'll just cover some of it.
It starts with the origin of the holiday. (if you even want to call it that.) People used to dress up in animal skins and skulls and dance around a fire to scare away "evil spirits." Creepy Huh? They would also cut holes in pumpkins and put a candle in it and stick a candle in it and put it outside their doors to keep away evil spirits. There's a lot more to the story but I'm not going to go that far into it.
I know what your thinking. "But it's just going around and getting candy, we're not doing it to scare evil spirits." But the world has bent it and made it look innocent, like it's done to many other things. October 31st is Satan's favorite day of the year, it's the time of year that millions of people celebrate him, whether they know it or not.
So there. That's just the basic reason of why I don't celebrate halloween. I don't care if anyone learns anything from what I just said. It's just my opinion. So if you love trick or treating, take no offense. It's just my views, like all the other stuff on this blog.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Passion

Hey! Alright, everyone keeps asking why I love Star Wars so much. Well, the main reason I love Star Wars so much is kinda a long story, but a good one! But that's not the story I have for you today. The other day I was reading an article about kindness. The kid who wrote it was saying how there was a guy he knew who loved Tootsie Rolls and he wanted everyone else to share his passion, so he always gave away free Tootsie Rolls. I thought "Hey! that's just like me except with Star Wars!" The guy said that he just wanted to share the love of Christ through something he loved. He also said that God had given him a love for candy and he was using it to glorify God. People saw his kindness when he gave away Tootsie Rolls, and he reflected Christ.
Well, that article got me thinking. God gave me a passion for Star Wars, I'm gonna use it to bring Him glory. Just like God gives people talents to bring glory to Him, I believe He also gives us passions. My passion is Star Wars. I bring glory to God by explaining to people the story of how God has been working in my life through my passion. What's your passion? How do you use it to glorify God?

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Forgiven

Hey. So, I've just been doing a lot of thinking lately and I was thinking of a place to share this and, since this is pretty much my place to share my thoughts, this was a good place to do it. Ok, so who doesnt know about the Cassy Anthony case? Honestly, its been all over the news since they declared her innocent. Well, its just been weighing really heavy over my heart. I just need to share my thoughts on the whole situation. Tuesday, when she was found innocent, my facebook blew up with posts about it. Sadly, they all said things like "Wow! I cant believe she's innocent!" and "She lied through her teeth out there!" Ok, I dont know if she's guilty or not. I dont know enough facts to have an opinion. There's only 3 people who really know what happened, Cassey, Caylee and God. I'm not going to base my opinion on what the media's telling me! I'm basing it on what GOD is telling me. Right now I feel like he's telling me Romans 12:20 "But if your enemy is hungry, feed him. And if he is thirsty, give him s drink....Do not overcome evil with evil, but overcome evil with good." From what I've seen and hear, people have been mocking Cassey like they're so much better. "But I dint kill my daughter!" People might say. 1. you cant prove she did either! 2. James 2:10 "For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at one point is guilty of breaking it all." Your not better then she is! Thats the reason Jesus died! For the sinners! (Luke 5:31 "And Jesus answered and said to them 'It is not those who are well that need a doctor, but those who are sick.'") Those are the kind of people Jesus died for. Those are the kind of people he ate with! (Luke 5:30) God created Cassey! He's just waiting for her to pour her heart out to Him. He loves her. One of my favorite bible stories is of the adulteress women. The Pharisees said that the Law Of Moses declared for her to be stoned. But Jesus said (John 8:7) "Whoever is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." Jesus was the only one without sin, but He didn't condemn her. He forgave her. Romans 5:8 says "But God demonstrates His love toward us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. He died for you, for me, for Cassey, for everyone. We arent better then her, we're all sinners. (Romans 3:9 "What then? are we better then they? Not at all; for we have already charged that both Jews and Greeks are under sin.") But you know what makes us, as Christians and children of God, different? We know we're forgiven. God's hand is reached down to all, He has the free gift of eternal life, all they need to do is take it. So now we need to tell everyone else and be a light int is dark world! (Romans 2:19) How are we showing Gods love in this situation? Everyone's talking bad about Cassey so we need to stand up and show God's love, not go with everyone else and talk bad about another person! We're better then that! We're the children of God! We were created for so much more! If I had one chance to talk to Cassey Anthony I would give her the gospel, not demand to know what happened to her daughter. You may think she's not getting what she deserves. But the truth is neither are we. We deserve eternal punishment in hell. But God said that even though we were guilty, we didnt have to pay the punishment. Jesus paid for that on the Cross. We're forgiven. That's God's mercy. I hope this has really changed your views, not just on the Cassey Anthony case. But please pray for her salvation. wow. That was long. I just felt led to write that and get that out in the open. Thanks for reading!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Maryland Here I Come!

I have been blessed with an amazing opportunity to go on a missions trip to Maryland. but have to miss out on going to camp with my best friend and in order to work at this camp next year, like I want to, I have to memorize 3 weeks full of bible verses. thats probably over 50 verses. its gonna be hard. I'm so excited about the missions trip though! I have been wanting to go on a missions trip since I was about 9 or 10. Last year my brother went on a missions trip and I was just dying to go! I hope I can really help make a difference there. Well, please pray for safety as we travel and as we work. It gonna be incredible! I can't wait!

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter! with all the happiness about Spring its easy to forget what Jesus did for us on the cross. He was beaten and bruised and hung on a cross and died for you! Take a moment and think about that. I know you hear it all the time. Jesus loves you. But He does! Jesus LOVES you! You! a sinner who deserves to go to hell. He loves you! I know for me it's hard to think about how much He loves us. I love the song Atmosphere by TobyMac, it really makes you think about God's love. He knows where you've been and He understands. He can be your shoulder to cry on and your friend who will be with you no matter what. So this weekend, just think about that<3