Monday, September 3, 2012

I'm Still Fighting

I was going to post this on my new Star Wars blog (ahhhh!:D) but I decided it would be better here since I've been blogging along and informing you of my battle with my blood disease ITP.
   The other day I was reading a book from The New Jedi Order series; Ruin by James Luceno. At the beginning of the series one of my favorite characters got sick and now they might be able to heal her because of something they found. But they don't know why she's sick (sound familiar yet?) and they're afraid it might only make things worse. They had tried it on someone else but it only gave them temporary healing. Not permanent. So as I was reading something she said stuck out at me.
"Besides, at this point, I'll accept temporary.....But this illness has been a part of me for over a year now. It's been my challenge, and I've fought it every way I know how. But it's winning Luke. It's winning."
    That caught my attention. It seems me and Mara were in the same predicament. Mara's a fighter. That's what she does. But since she got sick she wasn't able to fight. They needed her to rest. Now it's been a year and no healing came to her. In that line she admitted that she had been doing everything she could but the sickness was still winning. The thing about that was on the next page she takes the medicine. And it works.
   Sometimes you feel like you can't win. Like there is no way you can fight another day. But when you feel low, like your losing, healing may be right around the corner. So keep fighting.

   That brings me to another Mara Jade quote from earlier in the series. From Michael A. Stackpole's Onslaught.
"As long as I'm fighting, I'm not dying. And I'm not done fighting just yet."
   Yesterday I had my own personal victory. I played dodgeball at my youth group for the first time since I got sick. I finally felt like myself again. That was me fighting. I'n not giving up. Healing will come. And it may even be right around the corner.

1 comment:

  1. I am very glad that you got to play and I am glad that you didn't get hurt.

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