Monday, April 30, 2012

Heart Breaks

I know a lot of my friends are going through some heart break right now and I just felt like I should blog about it. Last week my older brother spoke at my youth group about love. It was one of the most amazing things I've ever heard. It moved a lot of people and I hope this does the same thing.
   I'm 15, I have never had my heart broken before but I can imagine how it would feel like. My heart aches as my friends tell me these stories of people who used to care just...not caring any more. One of the things to help is to focus on God. That's pretty much the solution for everything. But it really does work. An old bible study teacher of mine once said "Humans were made with this desire that we sometimes mistake it as a longing to be loved by a boy (or if your a guy, then for girls.) but it's really a longing for God." We were made with a thirst for God and as humans we try to satisfy that thirst with what the world has to offer. But God is the only one who can fill that void within us.
   Now, this doesn't mean it isn't hard when we get hurt. But you have to know that God has a plan. He has plans for the big things and the silly little things. He is in control. Always and forever.
   If your a teenager going through heart break remember this: Your a teenager. It's not the end of the world. It may seem like it is right now, but it's not. This hardship your dealing with right now is only going to make your stronger. So see what you can learn from it. God promised He would never give you more then you can handle. It's the hard times when we learn to rely on God the most.
   I wish I could write this big long blog that would make you cry and take away all your problems. Maybe next time. I wish I knew exactly what people were going through with break ups and all that but I don't. I know trusting God is soooo much easier said then done, but hang in there. God will be with you...always.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Kony 2012: A New Campaign

Well I tried to avoid it but it turns out I have to bring back this topic because it obviously didn't get through the first time.
   Honestly, who doesn't know about the whole Kony 2012 thing? Well a man from some other country did some pretty horrible things and now everyone's getting together to throw this evil man in prison. Sounds like a just cause right? He did horrible things to children and ruined many lives, so he deserves to rot in prison or something right? This is just me and I have really strong opinions and I when I talk about them I make sure to get my message across. There's just something about this campaign that doesn't feel right.
   I say this all the time and I'm gonna say it again. YOUR A SINNER TOO! Just like Kony. So instead of starting a campaign to throw this guy in prison ("Because he deserves it") we start a new campaign. One to pray for him. To pray that he sees God. He may see God when he's sitting in jail, or maybe God will open his eyes out of nowhere. But pray for him.
   I've sinned. I've yelled and out lashed out of anger. Do you look at me any different? How do you know whats happened to Kony? What's led him to his make these decisions? Now, I know that I can't go off defending all the killers and hoping they all go free. But pray for them. That's all I'm asking of you. Because your 1 minute prayer could make all the difference. That's all it takes. 1 minute.
   God has placed people on my heart. Cassey Anthony was another. To this day I still think about what she's been through. I pray for her consistently. God has given me a heart for these people. So maybe it's time to soften yours too.
   So right now. Pray For Kony.

Monday, April 16, 2012

A Story To Give Hope To The Homeless Part 2

This blog is way overdue and it's going to be written differently but I hope you enjoy it!

April 1rst 2010
I was soaking wet. I held the towel close to me. I could feel the cool breeze hitting my skin and it sent a shiver up my spine. As I enjoyed my ice cream I soaked in the moment. Tomorrow this would all be gone. I would be changing my way of life. Again. So I let it all in. Every little thing about it. Here I was standing with my bare feet on the gravel driveway to a place I now called my home though it wouldn't be much longer. I had spent the day being crazy with people I had begun to consider my family. We had done crazy things. We had sprayed each other with water and jumped on the trampoline with the sprinkler while music was blaring. I couldn't explain the sensation it gave me. It took my worries away.
In my mind I re-winded to 4 days ago. I stood in the hallway. I kissed my parents goodbye and waved to my family. My sister stood somewhere around me but my mind was in such a blur that I don't really remember what she was doing. I had made a silent promise with myself. I wouldn't cry when my family moved. Not here, not with these people around. Maybe tonight when I was curled up in my bed and alone. But not now. But as I said goodbye I realized I couldn't say "I'll see you tomorrow!" I had no idea when I would see them again. I didn't even know where they would be sleeping that night. As the door shut I felt my eyes begin to water. No. But when I turned around and saw her standing there with her arms wide open I couldn't do it anymore. Her eyes said all the things that her words couldn't.
"It's ok. You can cry. I understand."
So I cried. She gave me a hug. Me, this 13 year old girl was crying in the arms of a 9 year old.
Now hear I stood. Happy, at home. I had called my parents so many times since they had left 4 days ago. They were temporarily staying at a friends house and were ok. That made me feel so much better having heard their voices on the phone.
Soon I was dressed and dry again. I felt happy and refreshed. So much had happened. I walked up the stairs and turned into the living room...they were sitting on my couch. The new family that was to take in me and Dayle. Don't get me wrong, I was happy to see them. But I felt overwhelmed. I took a deep breath. They smiled at me. It was a girl and her mother. I had known them my whole life, me and the girl were close friends. She also had a brother and a father at home. They stayed for a moment to talk and then everyone helped me and my sister get our stuff into the car.
I said my goodbyes. I felt dizzy. This had to be a dream. But I knew it wasn't. I gave the 9 year old a hug and handed her an envelope with letters written to each member of her family.
"Read them once I leave." I said.
So I got in the van and we drove off. It was that moment that I realized I hated moving. Little did I know that I would have to face many more sorrowful goodbyes. As we drove away the little girl chased us down. She ran near my window until we were off the block and she stopped and waved.....Then she was gone.

That day was a game changer. It led to a crazy month. I loved it though. We did so many funny things. During the month of April we did many crazy things. Like had lunch at a cemetery, went to Navy Pier at 1o o'clock at night, made a radio show, and failed at double dutch. If I could go back there would only be one thing I would change. My attitude. It was hard adjusting to a new way of life. Especially one without my parents. It was my first time living without them. I never thought of how the family I was living with felt. The one girl only had a brother so she was thrilled to get "two sisters." To this day we refer to each other as sister. (It's only funny because the three of us are a blonde, a brunette, and a redhead.)
It was really hard for me. I got very over protective of my sister and felt that I had to stand up for her. That usually resulted in arguments. But the most amazing thing about that month is it didn't break our friendship. It made us stronger. I was positive the girl I lived with was going to hate me after this. But whenever we talk about it, she seems to forget all the bad things. Like they never happened. I could never thank her enough for that. Because I was such a brat then. But God had a plan. In all my ignorance and pride God still loved me. And so did that family.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Teenage Drama

I know I kind of touched this subject in a later blog but I feel like it needs to be addressed again. I'm a freshman in high school and so far I've managed to avoid the drama that most teens deal with. Sure I've gotten into small fights with my friends, but nothing to the point of wanting to un-friend them in Facebook. (haha, sorry. I had to make a joke there.) You may be thinking right now "Wow Faith! How do you do it?" Well I'll tell you about how I avoid drama and how I would deal to drama if I were to come across it. (Which is bound to happen sooner or later.)
1. It's not about the other person and the times they wronged you. God loves us unconditionally. He commands us to love everyone, ESPECIALLY our enemies! So drop the whole "Oh well they did so and so to me and I got really hurt by blah blah blah so it's all their fault!" No. Love. Try to see the other persons perspective.
2. Always be positive! Think positive and act positive. Emotions are contagious! So by being happy your mood may help someone else.
3. My saying at the moment is "Life goes on.: It's true. It's not the end of the world. Your not going to die because someone made a nasty Tweet about you. So stay calm and know that God has a plan, even for all the stupid little fights.
4. Pick your battles! Not everything is worth fighting about! Do you really want to watch a certain movie SO badly that it's worth getting into a big fight over? No. Some times you need to put yourself aside and put someone else first. It also honors God.
5. Part of friendships is working through hard trails. If friendships were easy then we would never grow. When we get into fights with our friends it can help us learn to set aside our problems and learn to love!
Seriously, people need to stop worrying about these silly little things of earth that aren't going to mean anything when we're with God. You can't control other people but you can control how you respond. Life is way to short to be freaking out over every time someone talks behind your back. I hope you've learned something from this. Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Boasting

Most of my blog posts start off by me saying I've been thinking. Well, I have been. I've also been doing a lot of praying. I feel like God is trying to tell me something but I don't really know what. I usually know when He's trying to get me attention, and I feel it, I just don't know what He wants me to see. So I was listening to music and let me just say this: music is amazing. It always helps me. Whenever I'm in a situation, writing also helps me sort through my thoughts. As I was listening to a song called Boasting by Lecrae (listen to it right now if you don't know it.) I realized how blessed I am. Just like it says in the song "With every breath I take, every heartbeat, sunrise and the moonlight in the dark streets, every glance, every dance, every note of a song, it's all a gift undeserved that I shouldn't have known. Every day that I lie, every moment I covet, I'm deserving to die. I'm just earning Your judgement." Wow. Amazing lyrics. I would love to post all of them, but I won't. Maybe another time. Anyway, it says in Galatians 6:14 "But it may never be that I would boast, except in the cross of out Lord Jesus Christ..."
With everything I've been through you really wouldn't think I would have much to boast about. But I do. I can boast about my amazing God! Who can be YOUR amazing God too, all you have to do is believe. Believe that we are all sinners in need of a savior, and that Jesus died to save you. He is the only way to heaven. I can boast in that.
So this is it. This is me being grateful for everything. For the good things and for the bad things. Because they have shaped me into who I am now. With the things still going on with me are shaping me to be a better person. Who God created me to be.
I am thankful for my family that loves me to pieces, for my house that I didn't have 2 years ago and even then I was in a better place then some people and could still be grateful. I'm thankful for people who love me because they build me up, I'm thankful for the trials because they make me stronger, I'm thankful for the stars in the sky, for the sunrise that makes my heart melt. For awkward moments and moments I can't breathe because they teach me what being a Christian is about. For my life, I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm thankful for my glasses, for the fact that I'm a "sheltered homeschooler", for my blood disease though sometimes I hate it. Actually, most of the time I hate it. But there are people with way worse diseases then I have. I love flowers and rain; I praise God for the things people say, my blonde hair and my flexibility. My talents are a gift from God, though I'm not perfect but when God see's me I know He looks on me with love. A love far greater then I can understand. I'm thankful for chocolate and ice cream, bubbles baths and Star Wars, for the times I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I'm thankful for the times God nudges me back to Him, it hurts sometimes but I would rather Him push me back towards Him then Him leave me straying from Him.
This blog really wasn't for anyone, it was mostly for me. To remind myself who God is, how much He loves me and how much I have to be thankful for. Yes, sometimes life gets complicated and all you want to do is hide from it all but you have to be still and know that He is God. You have so much to be thankful for. That was just my small list of things I'm thankful for.