Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Random

Just felt like blogging today to let you know I'm still using this blog.
I know I usually write about moving topics that might make you cry and all that, but today I'm going to be jumping around a lot since nothing major has really happened in my life.
Well last week I had my first real injury since I was diagnosed with ITP. I fell down the stairs at my friends house on our way to a party. I was a little shaken at first. I felt my arm and I had a huge bump. Honestly I wanted to panic. Luckily I resisted the urge to cry and held it together. When I got to the party I put ice on it. Its been getting better since then.
Another thing happening is that I've been looking into self publishing a book! I've wanted to be a writer for quite some time now. I've completed two full books and a couple children's books. But I would LOVE to get published! A lot of prayer is going into this. It's going to take lots of money to accomplish this and if it even gets published I wonder if it would even sell!
Well, God's got His hand on it so we'll see what happens. Thanks again for reading!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Patience

(Note: If you haven't seen Star Wars Episode 1: The Phantom Menace you probably won't have any idea what I'm talking about in this blog post. If you haven't seen it, I VERY highly recommend that you run to the nearest movie store as fast as you can and pick up a copy of The Phantom Menace because your crazy if you haven't seen it! Then you may proceed to reading this blog post.)


Hey! So as usual I was trying to sleep last night and as I was laying down I was thinking. I have been so anxious to be back up and playing sports again. Once God opens the doors for me to play I'll be up and running! I realized I needed a lot of patience. I'm not so good at waiting. I've been so freaked out about not being able to play sports and I've been to busy thinking about the things I'm missing to see what God wants me to learn from this!
Then my train of random thoughts went to how its kind of like how people sometimes come to a standing still point in their faith. Where they want to do stuff for God and their ready to take their next step but God wants them to sit tight at the moment.
Well, sometimes (Actually a lot of times.) my mind translates things or situations into things I can comprehend better. So while I was thinking of that my mind translated that situation into Geek Language. It totally reminded me of that big battle scene at the end of Star Wars: The Phantom Menace where Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon are fighting Darth Maul then Obi-Wan falls behind and when he catches up the shields pop up.
Qui-Gon gets on his knees and waited patiently until the shields went back up, but Obi-Wan was anxious.
When your stuck between the shields, don't feel anxious. God's got a plan. He's got you there. So get down on your knees like Qui-Gon and pray. Soon the shields will be down and you can go take your next step.
Thanks for reading!

Friday, December 9, 2011

"Why...."

In case you didn't read my previous blog I explained how I have a sickness (I guess that's what you could call it.) called ITP. ITP stands for idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura. That pretty much means that they have no idea what causes it. They don't know why it happens.
That got me thinking. Hard.
It's just like a lot of the things that happen to us and they make us ask questions like:
"Why did my dad lose his job?"
"Why did they have to die?"
"Why is my life so hard?"
"Why can't I just fit in?"
"Why did my parents have to get divorced?"
"Why did we get evicted from our home?"
"Why did they have to get sick?"
I've gone through some of that stuff, and I know lots of people struggle with some of those and many more. When bad things happen to us we usually ask "Why?"
The truth is: no one knows. No one on this earth knows why bad things happen to us. But God does. He has a purpose for all the hard things your going through right now. Sometimes it feels like we can't do it. Like our whole world is falling apart.
In March of 2010 I was evicted from my home. I had to live with friends for a year before God finally got me and my family a house. Some days I would be fine and my faith would be rock solid and other days I got tempted to ask "God, why? Why did this happen?"
Now I've got a home and looking back at all the hard things I went through I see it. I see why. I was changed. God has a plan for all the bad things that we go through. He never promised that life wasn't hard, but He promised that He would be there with us.
For some diseases people know why it happens, they know how it comes about. But do they really know WHY it happens? Why does God let people have cancer? Why do I have ITP? I don't know yet. But I have faith that one day I will know why. So for right now, I don't need to know why. I just need to be still and know that God is in control.
"Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10