Thursday, June 28, 2012

Missions Trip 2012

Oh.my.gosh. I don't even know where to begin. I feel so overwhelmed with emotion. Like, I miss it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much! I got to do a backyard bible study for kids living in government funded housing. The very first day I just knew I loved them. The ages were from 2 years old all the way to 13. Even some adults stayed the last day. It was crazy. These kids had such a knowledge of the bible it blew my mind! The kids had adorable southern accents! hahaha. I got to witness to at least 3 people on my crews mission site. Me and my friend also got to have a bible debate with a super smart 12 year old. He was crazy good. I learned just how easy it is to share the gospel. Now, I know its not always easy, but it's a lot easier then I thought. I also got to share my testimony with one of the older girls and I taught the bible study once. I almost cried. The kids were incredible. I will NEVER forget them.
   The worship was mind blowing! One night I got to stand on a huge balcony platform. It was so cool to see all these teenagers lifting their hands and praising God. The speaker was AWESOME! He was also super funny! The theme was Audacious. I certainly want to be audacious! I just want to shout about God's love to everyone! I started to make a mental list of people who might need Christ and me and my friend are working on ways to witness to them! I can FEEL myself changing every day, slowly becoming to person God wants me to be. I am meant to be courageous. I'm so excited!
   Another thing I learned SO much about is kindness! Everyone there was so.very.nice! It was crazy! I had like 5 people tell me they loved my shirt (with much enthusiasm may I add.), some girl offer me Twizzlers, and everyone was just randomly introducing themselves to me! It was amazing! But I also learned a lot from my church group and my crew. Well, when I worship I usually like to do it alone. It just helps me concentrate I guess. Well...people from my church decided I couldn't be alone. The first day one of my good friends came up to me while I was crying and gave me a hug and sat by me. Then the next day some other kid who isn't exactly my friend came and sat by me and told me he didn't want me to be alone. Then the next day I sat in the very back row and some kid I didn't really know at all came up and sat by me. These people literally made me SOO happy! I'm still smiling about it. Yeah, I really had wanted to be alone but I was to happy to be mad. I love it when people think outside the box. How much courage did it take to go and sit by a girl they didn't really know? That's kindness. It really touched me. Mainly because I get so inspired by all the little things that people do. Anything can make me happy.
   I was also so inspired to see the teenage boys on my crew interacting and playing around with the kids. One day I looked over and all the kids were playing follow the leader with a guy from my crew. Among other things like that I saw them witnessing, playing with the toddler and doing crazy handshakes with them. It was incredible!
   Wow. I wish I could tell you every single detail about it but I can't. I need some sleep. haha. Maybe I'll tell you more about the trip tomorrow. God.is.AWESOME!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Missions Trip!

Hey! Today's the day! At midnight tonight I'll be heading off for my second missions trip! Me and my amazing crew of 15 (I think) will be doing a backyard bible study for kids! We don't really know to much but I think we're going to be doing it for kids from families with low income. When I heard they were from families with not a lot of money, God tugged at my heart. Then they mentioned that some of the parents may stay too, and that we should talk to them to be a light for them. Wow. Yeah, God spoke to me. This hit close to home for me. Some of these people were living in government founded homes because they can't afford their own. I've been praying a ton that God will use me in the lives of these families. I want to share my story and all that God has brought me through. Please pray that I'll be able to do that.
   Also, I'm really hoping I'll have the energy that I need. It's going to be an 11 hour car ride. So all night while your sound asleep in your comfortable beds, I'll be in a huge hot van full of sweating teenagers. Yeah. I hope I'll be able to sleep. I'm also super tired already and my head is pounding.
   Please keep me and all 34 of us that will be going on this trip. Pray that God will use us and keep us safe.
   Thank you! Have an amazing week and may the Force be with you!

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Priorities

Hello! Today is kind of going to be a mix of a few topics. I wanted to do another Hope To The Homeless but I think I might need to wait another week for that. Today I want to share some news and share a quote. As you can imagine its a Star Wars quote. This quote has actually helped me a lot and it comes from one of my favorite Star Wars characters. Mara Jade. They made her to be so wise! I love it!
"Look, I cried when the Jade's Fire crashed. A ship, a thing, and yet I cried over it. What does that say about my priorities?"
   SO true! Being a teenage girl I tend to cry about everything. I cry when I can't go somewhere, I cry when I listen to music, I cry when I can't find my phone, or when my DVD player won't work and I can't watch Star Wars. I cry a lot. But what's really worth your tears? Should you really cry when you burn dinner? Is it really necessary to have a meltdown when the boy you like, likes someone else? No not really. Focus on things that matter. When you find yourself crying over unimportant things, re-organize your priorities! Count your blessings! We have far to much to be thankful for! Any time I want to cry I think of that quote. Ok, don't misunderstand me, God gave us the ability to cry for a reason. And its not wrong to cry. Sometimes I enjoy crying because its a chance to let my emotions out. But when you sit and feel sorry for yourself and complain and whine, that's when it has to stop. When it stops you from being able to go through your day. Think about all that God has done for you and be thankful! Because there's always someone going through something a whole lot worse then you.
   Ok, that was a lot shorter then I expected. Much like General Grievous from Star Wars episode 3. (Sorry, cheesy Star Wars reference. "General Grievous, your shorter then I expected."-Anakin Skywalker.) So now for my news! On Saturday (technically Sunday, we leave at midnight) I will be headed off for my second missions trip! I am excited. Not nearly as excited as I was for last year. A lot of things will be different but I know it'll be fun. I'm praying that God will use me and my life story to change lives! I'll be helping out a backyard bible study. The people attending will be from families with not a lot of money and I think they live in houses for some sort of government housing. I might get to talk to some of the parents of these kids so I'm really hoping I can be a light and be AUDACIOUS! (Since thats the theme this year.) So yeah! Prayers would be appreciated. I'll be gone all week so I won't post any new blogs. But I can't wait for the missions trip!

Friday, June 15, 2012

The New Design!

Hello! Well today I've been working on re-designing my blog! Fun, huh? Its so sad because I hate changing things but it really needs to be changed. Oh well. Goodbye old template, colors and design. Out with the old and in with the new! But I am very grateful and happy for all the new gadgets I'm getting! You can now share my blog via Facebook or Twitter, follow my blog by email, and even translate my blog into new languages! Wow! I'm super excited! Another thing I've added are my Tweets! You can now follow me and see what I'm up to on Twitter! Though all these gadgets are currently on the right side panel I am working on moving the around since now the left side looks deserted.
   Oh! I almost forgot! I added a new page to my blog! It's just to display some of my pictures. Since I love taking pictures I would like to share them with you! I'm probably going to add more pages but it might take some time. Comment or something to tell what you think!
   Some other ideas that were floating around in my head were creating another blog for all Star Wars stuff. Because a lot of my personal friends read my blog and since they aren't geeks like me I would hate to bore them, but on the other hand a lot of geeks I know online read my blog and I don't want to bore them either. Hmm..... decisions. I was also kinda thinking about changing my blog title since Princess Faith is the name my mom recommended for me when I got this blog 3 years ago. Now that I actually have a few followers I might want to change it. But I'm a daughter of the King, a princess, so it fits. But it makes me seem to girly...anyhow, I like it and how my mom gave me the name. We'll see what happens.
   So let me know what you think of the new look! May The Force Be With You!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Fear

What is fear? Why do we have fear? What makes us so afraid? Really think about those questions. I mean, God promises that all things will work out for our good. (Romans 8:28) Not only that but he says "do not fear" exactly 365 times in the bible. As I was always taught; if God says something, its important. If God says something twice, its really important. If God says something 365 times, you had better listen up. So He's not kidding when He says "do not fear." Yet what do we do? We're afraid. I could write a book on all the things I'm afraid of. Heights, roller coasters, the dark, creepy ally ways, horror movies, the list goes on and on. But I'm also afraid of other things like telling people about Christ. I mean, God is the only way to heaven. If they don't believe, they pay that price by burning in hell. I don't want anyone to go through that. Yet I can't even bring up the topic.
   Why do we let fear control us? Are we afraid of what might happen? What holds us back from stepping out? On the topic of spreading the gospel, I know its hard. I've only talked about Jesus with a non-believer twice I think. We like to stay at home in our comfort zone where we're safe. We don't have to take any risks or anything of the sort. But God calls us to step out! It's a scary thing. Fear is something that's always had a tight grip on me and it brings me down a lot. But think about it like this: what if someone were to die in a car accident and because you didn't step out of your comfort zone for a minute, they're in hell. What if something you said would have made all the difference in the world? I've said it before and I'll say it again: words are powerful. They can be used as weapons of destruction...or they can be used to build someone up. They can help make someone day a little brighter, make their load a little lighter. It's scary to step up and be audacious. I've been praying for courage to be audacious for a while now. But sometimes you just gotta do it. Don't think. I've always been one to just do things, even when I know I'll be terrified. Because I want to overcome fear. I don't want fear to rule me. I want to live my life trusting God. Knowing that He has a plan.
   A lot of the time God will call you to do things that scare you to death. But He's not going to call you to do something without the means to do it. When He gives you a mission, He knows your fully equipped to do it. He has given you the full armor of God. (Ephesians 6:10-22.I like to picture that in a lot of cool ways. You could go all Star Wars and do a lightsaber for the sword of the Spirit, or Marvel and Captain America's shield for the shield of Faith. Have some fun with it.) But God will give you everything you need to accomplish your task.
   So what's your excuse? Why do you continue to let fear rule you? Moses' excuse when God called him to tell the Pharaoh to let the people go (Exodus 4) was "I'm not good at public speaking." Worst excuse ever. God was like "Really Moses? You don't trust me?" One of my favorite verses is God's response. (Exodus 4:11-12) "Who has made mans mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now then go and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you are to say." Whenever God calls me to step out I want to say "Uh, God, remember I hate talking to people?" Then I remember that verse.
   The reason I used evangelizing and public speaking in my analogy is because that's something I really struggle with. But this can be applied to anything. God is with you. You don't need to fear. So forget fear. Joshua 1:9 says "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid nor dismayed, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Not only does God tell us to be strong and courageous, He commands us to! So listen up! So lets forget about fear and live to be courageous! You can be a hero. Be fearless.

Saturday, June 9, 2012

A Story To Give Hope To The Homeless: Part 3

After living in my second house in 2 months it was beginning to feel normal to be moving around so much. As the beginning of May came around me and my sister had to leave the place we were staying again. We then moved in with my mom, dad, my brother and my sister. 3 of my brothers were in 2 other places and had a home there for now. So I lived with half my family in a two bedroom apartment with my moms friend and her 4 children. I was very happy to be with some of my family again though it was often very crazy with many little children and at the time we had also gotten head lice. Not fun.
   I could look back on April and see everything. It had been a long month. At the time my mind was crowded and caught in the moment. I could see my tears and my heart was hard as I had fought for my sister. I had felt it was my responsibility to protect her. I knew school had been hard for her so whenever someone would press her or talk to her about school I would stand up for her. I knew she was scared. This was new for her. She was only 9. She couldn't be expected to adjust so fast to a whole new lifestyle. And neither could I. I was horrible. I felt sorry for myself and expected people to feel the same way towards me. I could hardly get through school without crying and often times I would get into fights. So I was almost relieved when I moved. Yet at the same time...it was sad. I was leaving my "sister." My dear friend who had come to be family to me. We had had so many fun times. The odd things we did, the inside jokes, the memories we made. But in May I still had to carry the scars and wounds from some of it and I wasn't quite ready to move on. I was afraid that at church it would be awkward seeing them again knowing everything that had happened and I thought for sure people would think less of me because of it.
   So a new adventure unfolded before me. I was with some of my family at long last and got to be a small light to the unsaved family we were with. Soon enough though my 2 little brothers also came to live with us. We were a family again...minus my older brother. Yes, there was a lot of drama. All 8 kids we 8 and under so lots of fights and screaming took place. But we would make it. We had to.
   One of the things that amazes me is how it all worked out. The redhead I lived with never talked bad about me to my friends, instead she told everyone about the month she had two "sisters." I can talk to them and know that I am forgiven. The feeling of forgiveness is an amazing one. To know that you are not judged by what you have done. Whenever we talk about that month we talk about the fun times. All of the bad has been wiped clean. I am new. I am not defined by the sins I have committed. So for that I am very thankful.
   God continued to mold me during that time. He was shaping me to be the women of God He wants me to be, and He continues to change me with every new day I can feel myself falling more in love with Him.