Monday, February 23, 2015

General Life Update

   Hello blog world!

   I just wanted to pop in and give you a life update. I always hated doing these for whatever reason, but with all the stuff going on in my life I just feel like I could tell everyone in one place instead of answering a million questions of individuals.

   First, I would like to apologize for typos. My baby sister spilled an entire cup of coffee on my family's only working laptop. The laptop survived, but not without damage to the key board. It's now got realllllyyyyy bad sticky keys. And the numbers don't work at all. So this post is going to take twice as long to write up.

   So here is what I've been up to.

   Health
   Well, as many of you know, I recently had a kidney biopsy. The results weren't so good and it appears that the lupus has gotten to my kidneys pretty bad. I'm now having chemo treatments every other week. Bad news is the possible side effects of chemo. The big two are losing my hair and losing my ability to have kids. Both of which I was saddened by hearing. But the good news is that I haven't been reacting too badly to the treatment other than my legs going oddly numb and some stiffness, which is more annoying than anything. Plus they upped the dosage of my steroids by a lot. So my lupus is kinda going out of control right now, but I have actually had a good week. I was able to exercise for the first time in a long time, which felt awesome. I'm going in for my next treatment on Friday, so we'll see how that goes. I've really been praying about how God wants to use this. Since I got sick I've been opened up to a whole new community of people, which means a whole new mission field. I'm excited to be able to reach out to them. So be praying for that.
 

   Photography
   I had one photo session with a family from my church and it was great! I also got to take some pictures at my church's chili cookoff as well as my nephew's first birthday party. My friend, Maddi, made an incredible cake for the event, which is pictured below.


   Currently my goal is to save up for a DSLR camera which has been incredibly difficult considering I don't have a job. But God is providing in more ways than I ever thought possible and now I'm almost halfway to having all the money for it! I can't wait to grow as a photographer and be able to offer my services more. I've also been toying with the idea of starting a legitimate business someday.
   
   School.
   Today I officially finished all my senior textbooks. I was really trying to push myself this year to do better in school since I've always struggled in that area. Now I want to take the rest of the year to focus on college prep and math. I want to learn how to properly write a paper and all that jazz. 

   Writing
   Ahh yes....that novel I wrote back in November...yeah that needs to get rewritten. I, however, know nothing about rewriting. I haven't got a clue where to start on two hundred and twenty pages of nonsense and gibberish. It can get overwhelming. But I don't want to give up on this story. It means a lot to me and I really feel God wants me to tell it. In a way, the book was mysteriously prophetic. It was a tough one to write since it involved being very open. God spoke to me a lot through writing it and I would hate to have it metaphorically rot on a shelf somewhere.
   Also, I HAD THE BEST PLOT BUNNY EVER. But I know I can't start it until I finish Forlorn Hope. But I may just have my NaNoWriMo for this year. Mwahaha! It's a psychological thriller esque. I am foreseeing so much research for that novel...but I'm excited!

   Becoming An Adult
   Like I mentioned before, I need a job. But there has been quite a good number of complications with this, mostly stemming from the fact that I can't seem to get an ID. But if all goes as planned I shall be getting that on Wednesday! After that, job hunting. Dun dun dunnnnn. Finding a job is going to be insane because I need to essentially find the perfect job. One what isn't a sitting down desk job and also one that I can tackle on a bad flare day. I want to enjoy it and I also want to work with people. Also, it has to be within walking or busing distance because I can't drive. I have a few ideas but I'm not sure who's hiring right now. I'm nervous because, well, growing up is scary and I hate commitment. I'm worried my body isn't going to cooperate. But I like working. I don't like being stuck inside all day, which is what my life is right now. 
   Then of course, getting ready for college. I'm going to community college, but I haven't got any of that sorted officially. I did my FAFSA but that' it. I need to register for classes and meet with the disabilities office about making accommodations for me, which I am so thankful they are willing to do. Praise God. I've got to save up for college supplies, mainly a laptop, and work out money things. 

   Things On My Heart
   ~That there are so many amazing people and things and great photos and breath taking sights and mind blowing stories I'll never get to experience or see or hear about. And I don't know if that saddens me or inspires me. 
   ~There are so many hurting people all around me and I am at a loss to take away their pain. And lately I have felt crushed by that. But its both beautiful and painful and I don't know if I'm angry by that or happy. I honestly think both.
   ~The stigma around mental illness.
   ~Fellow spoonies who are suffering more than me.
   ~The notion that life isn't a competition
   ~Learning to genuinely love others and listen and not just wait for my turn to talk. 
   ~Striving towards true spiritual maturity. 
   ~Church

   Things I've Been Loving
   Here is a miscellaneous list of things I'm enjoying as of late.
   ~Reading
   ~late night bible time with my Christmas lights and candles
   ~Journaling
   ~Spotify
   ~The music from The Nutcracker and Swan Lake
   ~Chocolate pie
   ~My friends
   ~Trying new foods
   ~Getting back into fitness
   ~Ludens cough drops and Orbit gum
   ~Lists

   Sorry that was longer than I expected. Whoops. I hope you enjoyed this post I made mostly for myself so I know all the crap I need to get done. Writing helps me think. 

   How are all of you?! Let me know in the comments or like my Facebook page and send me a message on there or email me or bother me on Twitter. I'd love to hear from you! 

   Have a great day!

8 comments:

  1. Oh, Faith, I'm sorry to hear that you are sick. I'm inspired by your trust in God through this hardship - I'm sure He will use you to help the people around you!

    This is just a wonderful post - it's always great to get a peek into someone else's life, to see what God is doing in their lives and hear about what they've been up to. I hope that getting a job/prepping for college goes well for you!

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  2. I love life updates! Sounds like yours has been a bit challenging as of late...I'm sorry to hear about all of that yucky stuff with chemo and lupus. :( That doesn't sound nice at all. Congrats on finishing all your textbooks! I wish I was done...:p

    How is my life? Mostly school, finishing up my senior year like you. I work a little bit...but I can't wait for summer so I can take more hours (and be out of school! I, too, hate being stuck inside all day. YUCK.)

    (also, that cake is bomb.)

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  3. Loved hearing about everything going on in your life, though the bad stuff concerning lupus pained me. I'm praying for you, for your physical health and for your spiritual health while going through it, as well as your job hunt, college prep, and getting that novel rewrote! ;) :)

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  4. I'm so sorry about the biopsy results, that's so sad. However, it makes me happy to hear the tone of positivity in your writing voice! I think God has blessed you with a wonderful fighter's spirit; I shall be praying for you! :)

    I hope you are able to get your camera, that would be awesome! I just know you'll be able to sort out your NaNo book and I hope job hunting goes smoothly! <3 <3

    ~Jamie

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  5. You know what I love about reading your blog?
    The fact about what a positive person you are, it's amazing :)
    Sorry about your health though I hope you feel better :)
    All the best with job searching!
    PS : That cake is so cool with TMNT :D

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  6. So sorry to hear about the poor kidney biopsy results. Congratulations on finishing your high school textbooks, though! What an exciting milestone. :) I hope that you find a job soon (that search is never fun) and that your first year of college goes well. I graduated from college nearly three years ago, and I'm still struggling with what it means to be an adult--it's a journey, just like everything else. May God bless you richly and bring healing to your body!

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  7. I just stumbled across your blog, Faith...
    This post really captures the essence of who you are as a person, so it's a lucky thing it was at the tippy-top where I could see it first. ;)
    I am very sorry to hear about your biopsy- but what is amazing to see is the way you look forward to seeing how God will use it. I see only hope and joy in your perspective as I read this, and that is truly inspiring. I will pray for you, alright? :)
    And I'm going to give your blog a follow.

    Love,
    Hannah Scarlett
    red-grace.blogspot.com

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  8. I'm sorry to hear about your biopsy results - I will keep you in my prayers. You're incredibly strong to be going through that but still care so much about reaching out to others. You are an inspiration. :)
    Congrats on finishing your textbooks, that's awesome! I hope your other goals go well also! :)
    (and aren't Christmas lights great, I still haven't taken mine in my room down yet)

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